So the video below was cool!!!!!! I didn't knew alot of people were singing along. :-) Anw, I'm supa bored. I finished reading the Diary of a Wimpy Kid, so I'm gonna return kuoky and make him lend me his other DWK books! i'm done with homework, can't be bothered with Science yet. Having tuition for about an hour with Bro later. -_- Nothing to do right now!!!!! Can't wait for wednesday, smth to look forward to!!!!!! :-D Can see him eh! :> Yay!!!!! Kthxbai.

I miss you! :D
xoxo.

Half of Encore! Starting from Clarinet Part! :D Disco70s!
Credits to Mavis!!!!! ^^ Woo. Supa cute! :>

xoxo.

260310 :-)

Ytd's concert was a success! Was release 15 minutes earlier from the rest, but didn't eat lunch coz i was still full from recess. Then went up to band room and brought all the things down. Victoria Concert Hall is kinda small, as compared to Singapore Conference Hall. But atleast it was almost a full house! ^^ We had rehearsals and my thumb started getting painful )-: Then at 6, we went to change into our jumpers (Eileen said we looked like Gardeners. True, true.) then went outside for dinner sponsored by McDonalds! :-P

@ About 6.45, we went backstage and got our red & white ribbons and tied it to our hair. Actually i find that we all look cute in it lor!!!! Hahahaha! :-P Then when the concert finally started, i was shiverring like mad. It was scary man! But then I was okay during Clarinet Choir. Woohoo! Clarinet Section ftw!!!!! :D Actually we played quite well for it! Despite all the conflicts and problems we faced, we still managed to pull it through ^^.

I was already not nervous during the second half ley! Woohoo!!!! @___@ Alot of people enjoyed Prince of Egypt! But then I preferred Totoro!!!!! :-P The whole band did well for this song, in my opinion! :-) (I can't stop humming to this song) Encore was the best, i felt! Hahahaha! :D But then by the time i played Disco70s, my mouth started to get tired and i started puffing already, and all my air started coming out from my mouth. -___- Oh well, we did well! :-)

I reached home at about 12 close to 1 AM. Can you imgaine how tired i was? I intended to read a book before i sleep, but i didn't even get to turn the page when i started Zzz-ing already! :-P But i swear i had fun yesterday! I must thank Pearlina, Huili & Dorene because without them, we wouldn't have made it this far! :-) Eventhough there was alot, ALOT, of conflicts going on in our section, i'm glad we still managed to go through everything tgt and we are even stronger than before! Thanks for being such wonderful Clarinet Seniors!Luv ya'll! :-)

P/s: Uploading photos in fb now!!! :D
Xoxo.

Had band today again! Concert tmr. )-: Idk if i'm ready or not, but i think i am. :-P Didn't practice much though, coz me, Daryl and Tanyin were busy teaching the sec1(s) how to dance for Dancing Queen!!!!! And I'm glad that Mr.Er approved of their dance moves! :-)

Hope that tomorrow's concert would be a success coz I kinda worked hard!!!! Really lor. )-: So tiring!!!! I've had band for the whole week!!!!! But i hope it'll be worth it. I'm afraid I'll cry tomorrow coz the seniors are stepping down! )-': Sighhhhh ~

Must take pictures!!! Alot alot alot of pictures!!!!! :-P I don't care how I'll look! But I will upload them in fb!!!!! :D I've been so committed to FB. Oh, and don't tag my unglam photos in FB leh! )-: I see already I disgusted by my own face! I'm bored!!!!!! I miss N. omgomgomg. Wtf, fuck his phone. Can't sms him coz of his stupid spoilt keypads!!!! )-: Miss messaging him. But i'm happy now that we're talking!!!!! :> I mean, as compared to last time lor!

I've been a hardworking galz, i did my history homework with the neatest handwriting ever, 2 pages!!!!! :-) Hardworking galz o'rite! HAHAHA. :D
That's all, byebye.

xoxo.

I'm glad you told your friends that you love me, it shows that you really do. Hope you'll realise that i do too, and i mean it!!!!! :D




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Today, Ahmad missed half a period of MT! Totally smth to celebrate about. The class was making constructive noises!!!!! :-P Oh, and he came back up smiling with a packet of Kopi susu and food! Hahaha, can you believe that? And rafie was playing with my dick!!!! :-P And we kept singing~ Hahaha!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZEHUI!!!!!! :-P

Thanks for being sucha wonderful friend. Like that time when i cried and you and Xr went down to find tissue for me!!!! Thanks alot! These little things means alot to me!!!!! :-) Thanks dear, love you!!!! You're fourteen now!!!! We're older than Xinrui!!!! Hahahahaa, so we can both bully her! :-P Okieokie, love you alot sayang!!!!! ^^

xoxo

Hate that 7-11 auntie @ limbang. Thanks for making me wait for fifteen minutes just so you can return me my change. Can't believe she didn't believe i gave her 5bucks for 2 newspapers!!!!!! _l_ Zzz. Dork. Then she step one serious, don't even look into my eye and let other customers purchase their items. Then after further checking she smiled and said: Sorry ah! then gave me my money. Faggot!!!!!

HAHAHA!!!!! HAHAHA!!! HAHAHAHA!!!! :D

Hahaha, you irritated by me, my per-lo-ber-lemz?!?!?!? :D I think I batrisyia! :D I agree with the groups in your class and mine, she think she belly sexy in her singlet!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!!!! :-P Ya, i can do, you cannot. Fuck, you seriously hava an attitude/image problem! )-: Oh, boohoohoo! Your boobs is kind of flat, that's why people can't see a thing when you 'where' that singlet!!!! :-P Sorry, don't ask me to understand myself when you yourself fucking don't. :D Oh, sorry. Your EX-CCA people hates you more, baby. You want me help you count? Sorry, not your dog. Oh, i forgot. That smiley isn't for me alone to use, it's for copydogs like you to use, sorry da jie. )-: You know why ish moi proberlemz when euux ish nakedzxc or wear singlet?!?!?!?! Coz i see until my eye pain. I bet you'll be like: Then don't see lah. Cannot!!!! YOUR BLOG YOU PRIVATE FIRST THEN I CAN DON'T SEE. :D Your post damn no link leh, you admit you guys are my copycats?! Hello, you my copydog leh!!!! Copypig my anus lah! Pigs are the smartest animal in the world :D Oh, sorry. There's no such thing as XLL, there's only such things as XXL! :-P WHAT A MORON!!!!!! NANANANANANA ~ Wtf, queen got people want copy ah? Ya hor, i forgot. You do look like the red queen from Alice in wonderland! CUTIE PIE! Wtf, moron. There is a difference between OFF and OF. :> Yes, i am not fit to be one OFF the slaves eh? You are fit to be one OF my dogs!!!! :-) And wtf. Your post link until so many animals and cutie cartoons?! Cartoons?! Hahaha, big fan of disney? :> I am!!!!!! HEHEHEH.

Sorry mother fucker. The N guy is for me to know. Alone. Wtf? WHO ARE YOU TO TALK ABOUT HIM?! Sorry, my BESTFRIEND loves him, got a problem? I didn't tell her the guy doesn't belong to her moron. Oh wait, no link siah you. I talk about you being copydog you go link till this? That one is your friend's problem, you don't chup. :D I did not fucking openly declare that I'm chio you asshole. Sorry, I am not your dog to tell you who's jio-ing me. But i know N loves me so shut the fuck up. Don't link until him your idiot. Atleast N loves me, who loves you? You wanna compare? I compare with you. I don't have to fucking think about it you fucken bitch, coz you fucking bitch can't even think. Eh hello, if i mind my own fucking business means i don't care other's problems right? What thing mind others?! WTF YOU TALKING. -__- Ooops, sorry. My BRIAN isn't pea-sized asshole. -_- BRIAN?! HAHAHAH. You say your friends are everywhere then still tell me to speak it somewhere? WTF? HAHAHA.

Sorry moron, others won't treat me that way. :-P
Sorry, but don't fucking link N to this problem. If N doesn't love me, I wouldn't post such things, even if i do, I wouldn't be brave enough to put his initial here you asshole.
_l_ That's for getting N involve, _l_ that's for getting Jessica and Yongjing involved, _l_ that's for your fuck face.

xoxo.

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You don't like me for who I am,
then you don't like me for who I am...
And all you're gonna get, is who I am!

- From siewhui who got it from Avril Lavigne! :)

O___________________________o

Don't know if i should be excited for the Band's concert or sad that the seniors are stepping down! I will miss dorene & Huili to the maximum. I'm bored bored bored. Band on Monday, Tuesday & Wednesday! >: K bored. Talking about the past with my horny bitch. hahahahaha :-P

Kthxbai.
xoxo.

Hi bitch! Thanks for trying to imitate me! Yknow it's really difficult to be me. :-( I really don't care if you hate me or not coz you're not my bestfriend. You're not even my potential bestfriend nor are you my bestfriend's goodfriend so don't step one close with them please!!!!! :-P Thanks dog. Oh yeah, anyway - stop copying me lah. Fucking unoriginal? like seriously. I don't give a fuck. I don't care, i noticed you never typed smileys like me before, until i saw the post and my goodfriends told me you did, if not i couldn't be bothered. -_- Wtf, unoriginal much?! Copy dog. Sorry, eventhough I'm petty, but i'm not as petty as you. :-) Please don't even try to be me, you don't have enough potential, moron! Crybaby. :> Sexy leh. I also wanna buy you 3 for $5 singlets! You buy at which pasar malam? Cutie. Fuck off.

Don't assume that this post is for you. :> But i'm tryna make it obvious. And if you start tagging me thinking that this post is for you, then, by all means, moron! :-P

xoxo.
This post is definitely with love.

I'm in love with your cute smile I'm in love with your ___-ing craze I'm in love with your one-high-one-low-socks I'm in love with the way you walk I'm in love with your eyes I'm in love with your big shoes I'm in love with the way you run I'm in love with watching you kick soccer balls I'm in love with the way you act I'm in love with your sweet messages I'm in love with the birthday text you send me I'm in love with your fear I'm in love with your hands I'm in love with your warmth I'm in love with your everything I'm in love with you.

N, xoxo.

I'm extremely bored. :-( Keep thinking of someone. Talking to Lenz right now!!!!! :-P Supa extremely bored. Gonna be alone at home again! Mum didn't cook so maybe eating Maggi later! She's gonna watch Alice In Wonderland 3D with my sister. :-) Alright, I'm off!

Chionging homework later!
xoxo.

If you love me don't be scared )-: I'll be here for you.

P/s: I almost puked when i saw facebook photos of ugly ducklings! -_-

Tired.

Another super tiring day from band, although it ended earlier. Was late with Jessica, Zawati & Nad again! Hahahaha. Wtf?! Well, me and Jess did try to reach schl earlier. Anyway, had to teach Sec1s dance moves for Dancing Queen. Got Tanyin to helped. @.@ Wtf, he remembered almost all the dance steps. We did modify it abit though. :-) Anyway, found out there are some really cute/irritating/nice sec1s. (Y) Some has an attitude problem -.- Whatever.

I've done 2 math Quizzes today!!!!!!! :-P Perhaps doing 2 more tomorrow and once I'm done, I'll finish up abit of Math homework and start on my Macbeth poster. That's for tomorrow! :-) Hopefully i can finish all my homework. Oh fuck, there's art! -____- Omgwtfbbqsauce lah!!!!!! _l_ K, forget it. I shall hand in my art homework @ a later period!!!!! :-P Who cares! Oh yeah, band uni is too big and looks ugly on me. O___o Wtv.

Xuankai was being such a bitch in the LRT. Stupid asshole! Keep giving me that fuck face! :-P What an asshole!!!!! Hahahahahaha, he's a nice asshole who's "in a relationship" - facebook!!!!! Hahahaha, he totally denied that he has a girlf. when i asked him who it was. Dorene thinks that he put that status just to attract attention. Now i think so too!!!!!!! :-P

Kthxbai.
xoxo.

Happy to the maximum, love you too. If only i could say it to you again. )-: But atleast ____. :D


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Found out from my mum that my sister's friends (who came the other day) ate almost 3/4 of my cookies?! >:( Hey, it's my cookies!!!!!!!!!! Nevermind! Atleast i still have one small container of cookies. )-:

Today was a fairytale.

Here's the photo spam that i promised! :-) Mum baked cookies for me! Yay! Thanks mum. :') It taste so good!!!!!!! :b :b :b



Anyway, met xinrui @ lot1 :b Was otp with Darren along the way. Realised that we were late for cop out(movie) so we decided to catch Alice in wonderland (3D). Money fly, heart pain!~ )-: It's a nice movie, not bad! I like it when she chopped the dragon's head!!!! :-P Hate the big headed queen! hahahaha, moron. Anyway, decided to take Neoprint with Xinrui! She still owe me my four bucks! :P Had an enjoyable day with her!!!!! :> We had fun, right dear? Luvher!!!! Thanks for the present that you shared with Szehui! :-P

Anyway, met verlynn and we both send Xinrui to LRT. :-)

Camwhored while waiting for Verlynn to eat! She eat so slow lor! Stupid cock! :-P Then keep complaining the soup hot!!!! What an asshole she is, but i lurb her!!!! :-P Here's a photo i took with Szehui & Xinrui's present, so cute right? Can you guess that it's a coin box!!!!! Awesome much!


Present from Glenson! Hahahaha, HQ called it the bottle man! Ftw. It's cute right? Hanged it on moi phone ~














The last photo very cute!!!!!! Hahahahaa! Was wearing Verlynn's geeky specs while she was, as usual, in her shades!!!! Hahaha, she retarded lor. Not sunny also wear shades, in toilet also wear shades?!?!?!?! O___o Hahahahaahaha, k lah! Then she send me to bus stop and waited for the bus with me!!!!!! :> And shouted love you at the end! So sweet, luvherttm!!!!!!! :-)

Thanks for the wishes! And omgwtfbbqsauce, didn't expect to receive wishes from Pri school friends and via phone calls! Hahahaha, first time! And didn't expect a message from him. Eventhough he's somewhat one of the last few who messaged me, atleast he did and he even send me the longest message among the rest, :-) Wow, i love him la!!!! )-: Too bad we're ___. Kwtf. That's all, thanks to everyone who wished me in msn, twitter, sms, calls, in their blogs & tagboard!!!!!

xoxo.

Tiring day today. :-(

Band was simply just tiring! :<> Awesome, Clarinet Choir is starting to sound fine. :-) Macs for awhile then went home. Thanks, Hanquan, for the present! :-) Thanks for the wishes too! :-) Luvyouguys!!!!!! :-P

Super tired right now!!!! Movie tomorrow with Xr and meeting Verlynn for h2h session afterwards! :> Anticipate! :P Okieokie, I'm off! Thanks for the wishes once again! :>

xoxo.

*Yawn*

Yes, feeling sleepy/tired right now! Firstly, Happy Birthday to Dearest Evavavava! Thanks for being sucha wonderful listening ear and listen to all my rantings about N last time, now you're 15 baby!!!!!! :-) Last long with your beloved Taylor Lautner okie!!!!!!! Luvyou (xgazillion) :> Next, last long to Jessica!!!!!! Yes, you know you definitely owe me lots! Last long last long with him okie! You've been a great friend, you deserve all the happiness! :-)

Had band today! Problems along the way, god. Well, atleast I managed to practice more on the running notes for Genroku! :-P Spam notes, hahahahaha wtf. It was cool. I like Norita's solo! :> I kept thinking of him when i looked at the field though, missed him. :< :< :< Too bad he's never coming back. *sigh*

Was suppose to go home early but decided to go greenridge for awhile, then something happened - birthday joke?! Lolz!!!! Okay. :-P Anyway, went home with Nadhirah & Jessica! We noticed lots of different people in the bus, hahahahaha! Jokesterz. Anw, volleyball had camp! Saw rashydy!!!!!!! :-P But i don't think he saw me, pffft. Alright I'm off!!!!

Meeting Jessica @ 8 tomorrow. :> :> :> Band again tml, *sigh* )-: Feeling supa dupa tired! O'rite! Kthxbye! :>

xoxo.

Yknow. I. Miss. You. )-:

I miss your smile I miss your laughter I miss your good morning darling texts I miss waiting for my phone to blink for a new message from you I miss going to the soccer area just to see you I miss your missed calls for me I miss you walking past my class and smiling at me I miss you standing beside me I miss your peace-sign that you always show to me I miss your cute face I miss sitting beside you I miss watching you run I miss looking at the time and knowing that you miss me I miss being able to tell you that i love you every night I miss looking at your class and knowing that you're thinking of me I miss the time when you told me your feelings I miss the time when we let the truth out I miss the time when you called me darling I miss the time when you said you love me I miss the time when you're there for me and i miss you more than ever now.

I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever.
I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever.
I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever.
I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever.
I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever. I miss you more than ever.

Fifteen times for a reason,
xoxo.



:-(

I'm done with my blogskin! :-)
Why am i so into white? Roflmao. :> I'm bored & hungry. :-P Chatting with Dorene, Dinie, Toot, Mint & Weebean naoz! It's raining nao! Feel like sleeping. The thought of the pile of homework i have is scaring the shit out of me. :< Band tomorrow, oh god! From 8 - 9 ++ PM. )-: I think by the time my phone battery will die. -___-

Supa bored right now. Kthxbai!
I hate people who extra around when I'm not even talking t them, i talk to your friend, your problem? :-P TTTH.

Hiiiiiiiiii :-) I've got plans for the holidays!!!! Ofcourse about half of it is filled with band activities like the band camp. I don't think I'll be able to finish my homework luh, seriously. Schl holiday doesn't feel like a holiday at all. Worse, we have to stay from early morning till late at night for band practices. Zzz - Time management? I really need it. But atleast I'll get to watch movie with Verlynn & Begonia on Wednesday!!!!! <<<< What date isit? Who's birthday isit? Hahahaha. :-)

Missed these two sweethearts alot. :> Anticipating!!!!! :-) I sumpa photo spams okie? Hahahahaha! Awesome much! Breakfast with Jessica tomorrow! :> Dinner-ing with band mates again on thursday i guess! And i can't wait to get my Ipod!!!!!!!! :-) Oh, and when schl reopen, they're going to start changing my seats!!! -_____________-

Anyway, feel like changing my blogskin! -____-
But I'm lazy!!!!!!! )-: Okie, wtv. If I'm not so lazy later! 8) <<<> Hahahaha, omgwtfbbqsauce! :B I'll go check out blogskins now! And bloghop, and tweet along the way! Chatting with jessica!!!!! She reply me so slow! Stupid asshole lah she!!!!!!!! :> But i lurbz her! :> Wl, dorene not online! Sho sianz! Ytd night was talking about the s-change-to-z galz. Supa hilarious. And talking about people copying me. :-( Ass with no hole, kthxbai!!!!

xoxo.

Sorry for the retarded photo. Everytime i tried taking photo with crossed eyes, it doesn't seems like it in the picture. -.- So, how's school Batrisyia?

Bad. :<
People have been picking on both me and Siewhui just because we got abit more talkative in class. Check it out, there are other worse people around. I think they're just plain biased. Like whatever. I'll end up talking to another person. I'm so close to alot of people in class. -.- Stupid assholez.

I've been sharing my feelings about N to some close friends lately. So must really thank them. :> Shanle, Siewhui, Veralynn, Xinrui, Jocelyn & Szehui. Thanks sweethearts. :-) Not forgetting Sisters! Thanks for being there guys. :')

Received my progress report, failed 4 subjects - Geog, Sci, Math & Art. -.- (Y) (Y) (Y) No comments. I hate my XX. -.- Seriously hate him for always picking on me, too bad he's my XX. What the fuck. -.- Hate him pouting in class. And forever disagreeing to our ideas in class! -.- & When we gave good ideas, he'll end up giving his big nostrils + pout lips fuck face and tell us: It's a good idea, but how?! Then he ends up reprimanding us for not putting in effort. Well, can't you see we're trying? -.- Moron. Can't be bothered, pick on me all you want. :-P Sucker.

Had band! Went for lunch with Jessica. :> Mr.Er introduced his teacher. She was hyper and random and super crazy!!!!!!! :b GuanMing keep telling me that she's xxxxx. Abit, maybe? Hahahaha. Practiced on Magic Slides/Prince of Egypt.

Dinner @ Macs with Norita, Nad, Glenson, Hanquan & Felicia. Smth happened, cheerup Norita! :< :< :< Stay positive. So, Mr.Er's leaving after the band concert. Wondering if i should quit as well. Since my studies were kinda affected. ~ Hmmm. See first. :-P

So he was in the hospital, according to Lenz, arm operation. )-: Get well soon. :>
Happy birthday Haikel!!!!!!!! (Actually, i didn't know his name was spell like that)
Happy advanced Birthday Eva!!!!!!!! :>

I think it's cool. Haikel's birthday then 2 days later, Eva's birthday then 2 days later . . . *coughcough! Hahahahaha :-) Alright, I'm done posting. Shall go search for random videos to watch since i'm supa bored right now! :/

xoxo.
I'm tired of missing you.

Do you really not know how much you love someone till you’ve lost them?

Today, i passed him the letter with the help of Lenz. Dorene was kind enough to actually volunteered to help me give it to him, but Lenz snatched it from my hand. :/ My heart was beating damn damn damn damn fast, omgwtfbbqchop! But atleast we're fine now. :-) (Aft. apology sessions and stuff) I still miss him now. :/ I should learn to appreciate him before, now that i lose him, it's too late. :/ Just too late. (sigh) Hope that after he read the letter, he will know my feelings towards him through those quotes. :/ Luv you N, after you made me realise how far the ground.

xoxo.
I love N. :>

Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?
Why is it so hard for you to fall in love with me,when it's easy for you to break my heart?

#WLQ.
(7 times for a reason)

You know i still love you, too bad i had to let go.
xoxo.

Friendship Remain And Never Can End.

I figure that I should post, so here i am!!!!! :-) Don't wanna leave my blog so dead. Let's talk about school. Had band practices as usual - on wednesday, I was kinda upset about stuff. :/ Eva noticed it, & she talked to me while i accompanied her to eat! :-) She's sucha greatgreatgreat friend & we'll always be jumping around, discussing about our POVs on T & N, aye? :> She's great. She gave me loads & loads of advices & that i should trust him. I should heed her advice. & also shared it with Norita, Jessica, Xinrui & Felicia.

Oh, Xinrui cheered me up too - when i was about to cry. Thanks Albirdbird!!!!!!! :-) I like xinrui lahhhhhh, she's so cute. :> Glad that she's in the clique already, i mean. Somehow. Lenz - be happy, we can all, be happy!!!!!! ~ Hahahahaha.

I agreed with Felicia ley! She said smth like: "Why do you need to care about what others said about him? He just needs your trust, not others. " Something like that. She said better stuffs ofcourse but this is the only part i could remember. :x Thanks guys!!!!! :-)

Then on thursday, i had Cl. Choir sectionals. It turned out, bad. But we improved abit. Hopefully Mr.Er would allow us to perform. There happened to be a lot of problems. :/ But i'm sure both parties are in the wrong though. Anyway, he called me to meet me but it turned out i had band so i couldn't. And when i went down to go walk with Jocelyn and talk to her, he called out for me but i didn't hear. )-: Nevermind, next Tuesday. :>

Anyway, I failed my science test again but improved. -.- Fuck. Oh well, atleast i studied. I bet I'll fail Geog again. & I did try in Math. but it's okay, i guess. Coz i've been scoring As & Bs for the rest of the subjects. :> So only 3 subjects to focus on, woohoo!!!!! ~ All the best t me.

I'm off, I love N. hahahahaa.
xoxo.

There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved.

I change, they change. Everyone change. It's just part of life, i guess - whereby changes takes place. Somehow it's difficult to accept someone who has changed, it's like you're so used to this person and now you find it difficult to adjust yourself to him/her. It's like me, it's like you, It's like him, it's like her - it's like everyone.

Perhaps i shouldn't really focus on the negative side of someone who has changed, perhaps she has changed for the better. Or maybe he/she hasn't really changed but just found the inner part of him/herself. My bestfriends changed, either for the better or worst - it's up to me to decide. Like toot said, different people have different perspective, i guess i'll just have to think positive. :')

Yes, i'll have to admit. It's difficult, since I'm not used to this kind of environment, but I have to try, coz she's my bestfriend, who's always been there for me. I should try to understand her like how she tried to understand me, and i shouldn't force her into things, for that, I sincerely apologise. I hope i'll manage to get use to the new her, and perhaps she really did changed for the better. Just that I've always been sucha negative person, i looked at the bad points of her changing. She, my bestfriend, perhaps has changed to someone who is more understanding/matured & maybe she see no point in disliking her like we do. I should understand that, coz she's my bestfriend & I'm hers. She needs me, i need her too. :-) But at times I just wish she'll tell me the truth, about how she feel towards me - there are some things i know but don't dare to bring it up. I know you, bestfriend, will be reading this post. And i sincerely apologise and still love you no matter what, really. It's just, difficult. For now. But i'll get used to you, coz yknow - you're my bestfriend, i'll make an effort to be comfortable with you. :-)

Coz i'm just so used to talking to you about her, that now that you stopped, it's like i lost a gossip partner, bestfriend. :/ Sorry. Loveyou gazzilionnnnnnnn (x infinity) I know she loves me, coz i love her too. This is a small matter, i shan't be too sensitive. I love her for the way she is, and i should continue doing so. I'm sorry, again.

xoxo.