I no longer have the fear of being alone. It’s cool to find out that you don’t need a boyfriend to be happy.

Oh fuck. I fucking hate PE. Because of one particular person!!!!! Totally ruined my interest for PE. I miss Mr.Hanif max. ): He motivates me. And i'm going to fail 2.4 again. On purpose. I don't give a fuck. Fucking spoil my mood and you know what. I think I'm going to catch a cold/get fever soon. :/ I feel tired. -_-

MR.__: *complains complain complains*

Mindy: Someone should really tell him that it's drizzling.

Me: Erm, Mr.___, it's drizzling.

MR.__: I know that, I can feel. You don't have to tell me that!

Me: ...

Someone: .... but our bags!

MR._ gave us permission to leave our bags in the shelter. Under the shelter..

MR._: - I don't want some people in the class to complain about me not being responsible blablabla to the principle.

Conor: *Makes retarded faces*

MR._: Choose 3 games and play. In the rain.

Me: (Y) AWESOME. Not.

After PE.

MR._: blablablachattershitcrapjasjlfldafhlfladhf... Your hair all look wet, I don't want you to go to your next class looking like that. Dry your hair first.

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Okay, I'm going to cry the next time there's PE. -.- I think I'm going to cry. Oh my god. I feel so fucking sick already. -.- Like my forehead feels heavy. Damn it. School was okay. Indirect Proportions was confusing shit - luckily there's no peer tutoring today. I've been drawing in class. Hahaha, major wtf. Hot teacher walked in during Geog to relief us. FOR TWO FUCKING WEEKS!!!!!! ^^ Naked Fish + Daiso with Xinrui, Siewhui & Jocelyn. :)

Didn't get to say bye to him, i think he don't bother also. Ah fuck. ):

OMG. I AM SO INSPIRED BY WHATMARIELSAID@TUMBLR! Her post are awesome shit and she gave me inspirations for his birthday presents. HAHAHAHA. :) Okie. I'm going down to buy a scrap book later. :>

And yknow what. I'm bored. Strawhearts can wait. It's the scrapbook that's more important!!!!! ^^ kthxbai. Loveyou.

-I remembered that 6 hour conversation we had, it was awesome.

-I remembered the times when i threw sweets on your face. :')

-I remembered that boy-ish half smile you gave me after smacking my face with that fucking sheet of paper.

-I remembered we had same shoe brands!

-I remembered you peeling that lollipop wrapper for me to suck but I purposely and stuck up-ishly declined your offer. God, i was sucha bitch.

-I remembered when we first chatted in MSN, you asked me if i liked him. What the fuck, no. Now i like you.

-I remembered how i shared with you my problems and you gave me advices and even tried to help me solve the problem.

-I remember you showing me your ____ that night during camp and i swear it was white.

-I remember when you confessed and my hand was shivering but i was smiling.

-I remembered how you recommended Glee to me. It was a good show. And when i tell you that it's good you'll be like: GLEE PER. Sial ah. -_- :D

-I remembered when you told me you fell on your butt and i got all worried wtf. For your fucking butt. :D

-I remembered when you told me that you like me before he does and i was touched like mad shit but why the fuck didn't you tell me earlier stupid bitch?

-I remembered when you told me you had to kept it a secret so that your friendship with that dork won't break and it's a secret i will never tell others for you.

-I remembered when i was stalking you from above (wdffff) just to see you march but apparently i saw you sitting down and i got all fucking worried and i smsed Z immediately just to know what happened. Atleast your'e fine now.

-I remembered when you said you love me as a friend! And i know actually you mean it for the first three words. :P

-I remembered how i think you're sucha coward, not admitting that you like me -.- Dog.

-I remembered you telling me 29 is your favourite number.

-I remembered how you'll say I stink and I suck and you're bored and I'll say you stink and you suck and I'm bored. :P Cute much.

-I remembered how i told you that the way you smile is like a fucking girl but I like it.

-I remembered how you told me you're so open to me and I'm glad you're really comfortable with me too. This is the first time I've been so comfortable to a guy-bestfriend-that-i-like. :)

-I remembered every little things about you. It's important. :)

-I remembered how you told me that you chose no one instead of choosing either me or E and i was sad. I'd rather you choose somebody than choose nobody because you keep me hanging on. )':

-I remembered how you call me cb fucking bljashfldahjfdojaoijdihaf bestfriend and asked me to ignore the vulgars and concentrate on the last word. Bestfriend. :') Yeah, we're bestfriends and I like you. (L)

-I won't tell anyone. It's our secret. ^^

I think about, miss, need you. And you know what. I kinda like you. Maybe not love, yet. And why am i posting this? Because I miss you now. -.- Ah fuck. ): Come online soon.

p/s: OH YOU'RE ONLINE AND TALKING TO ME. YAY! :D

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Sorry no pictures! But let's talk about the Band Practice + BBQ we had last Friday! Okay so far it's one of the best band practice I attended because we did stupid things and Even Miss.Tan said that she wanted to kill time. So she wasted alot of time giving us tips on exercising our eyes, fingers, toes and stuff ~ So we only started practice like an hour before lunch. Then a few hours later we had our BBQ session. Had captains ball before that!!!!! Hahahaha, James was talking cock with us all. And we were laughing our ass off!!!!!!!!!! He was bitching about the ____ and we were gossiping all the way! Together with Huimin, Simin, Kasey and Pris. :P

We didn't wanna win captains ball coz we couldn't be bothered and was bored. Roflmao but we ended up scoring 3 but the other group won. Heheheh. Then we sat down in a circle and played Black magic, chop chilli (or smth) and Bang Bang chucky chucky! LOLOL. Damn funny. Especially the Chop chilli one. Hahahaha, i sat beside james and he was crap!!!!!!!

Then went for BBQ and i swear i finally bonded with our section, hahahaha. Ohmagawd. -_- We were working tgt okie??? I was feeding Eileen, Tanyin, Kasey and Pris while they were BBQ-ing! Hahahaha (Y) They said i was their mama wtf -.- heh! Oh, the chocolate banana thing was nice shit! I'm gonna do that one day at home. :) Or put more fruits or smth!!!!!!!! It's like Chocolate Fondue but faster. Yums ~ (Y) (L)

Continued BBQ-ing till like 7+ and the chicken cooks only on the outside. Wtf -.- I gave Xuankai and Glenson like semi-cooked chickens. Heh! Sorry. Then had some eating contest and James vomited - HAHAHAHAHA! He said they were making him laugh. :P HAHAHAHA. But Clarinet Section was the third to finish! Woohoo ~ :)

Then played the bombing game thanks to Norita! Lolol. Her section was like "Sax bomb sax bomb!" HAHAHAH funny maxxxx ~ Then fall in and went Macs after that. Initially wanted to have supper there with Haikel, Xuankai, Wai tin, Jasper, Zhenjia, Norita, Edmund, Felicia and Nadhirah. But decided to go back home in less than 15 minutes. Roflmao ~

That's for BBQ!!!!!!! Okay this is a wordy post. The next one gonna be short. k???

I went to my relative's wedding and saw dimple-on-left-cheek guy! Hahahaha hot lah wtffff -.- I regret deleting him off MSN coz I'm afraid that my cousin might get jealous. And he gave me this boyish half-smile!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D K that's the only interesting thing that happened. :') Camwhored with Norish! :') k that's all! Heh! Told ya it's short. :P

xoxo.

I love you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Supa bored now. ): Band tmr. BBQ at night. No i haven't finish my homework but who cares. -.- Boys are insensitive dorks. :'( Miss him so much wtfwtfwtfwtfwtf. Saw 11:11 twice and made a wish twice. Each night i wish for the same wish. :') Heh heh heh.

FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFuck. (L)

YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYeah.

TAEYANG BABY. JONGHYUN BABY. PUCK BABY. FINN BABY. TAYLOR LAUTNER BABY. What???? A girl can dream!!!!! But my real B is ___________________. hahahaha. Woo, sayang sayang sayang. <: Random fag.

I'm really lucky I'm in love with my bestfriend. ^^ In love with all of them!!!!!!! Esp. him! :P

There's only 1 thing, 2 do, 3 words, 4 youuuuuuuu. I love you. :')

Yesterday I talked to my brother till two in the morning. :) Couldn't sleep. Slept only at four. Stupid lenz call me only to make his friend bark like a dog on the phone. Nb. I woke up with a sore throat -.- Niwayz, . . . BYE!

If you love me, let me know. If you don't please gently let me go.

Met up with my girls today! :D :D :D

Went to JP to catch a movie but only 3 movies are being played and some of my girls already catched the ones me & Ver haven't watch. ): Anw, so we walked around for Begonia's comb!!!!!! Wtfwtfwtf, stupid beebee! :P She keep pointing me the finger. And oh, I am the shortest in the group. ): _l_

Andddd, I finally bought my Caramel Frappe` which was awesome! :P Lirong's Double chocolate Frappe` was supaaaaa sweet. (N) Bus-ed back to Lot1 to slack. :) We went into the Neoprint machine for some stupid camwhore sessions. :P Went to the nearby toilet and camwhore again! I love the mirrors at Lot1 toilets, they're so nice & I don't know why.

Oh, then there's this fucked up Concord Junior. Sec1 now. I think she thought i was chinese or something. What a joke. She took photos in the toilet with her friend too. I mean, ofcourse, the toilet is public. Then when we laughed at our own stupid actions, she said: "Ketawer ah, ketawer." Which means "Laugh ah, laugh." Then when I was talking to heidi and I mentioned the word "chiobu" she said, "oh, thanks!". -.- Asshole. No life no life seriously fucking no life. After they went out, i said bye to them! Heehee! :P One of them was like: "I think one of them is malay." Now then you know? Slow.

Niwayyyyz, slacked at rooftop for awhile! ^^ Supa fun gossiping and stupid Beebee kept bombing me. _l_ hahahahahah. :P Asshole. Oh, and saw the two stupid juniors again. They were staring at us. I kinda pointed them my finger, hope they enjoyed. Then while we're on our way to Delifrance, they were there too. They were in fact, stalking us. -.- Laaaaamefuck. Then when we went in Delifrance, they just looked at us. Hahaha, i bet they didn't went in coz they couldn't afford even the student meals. :P Fucking jokes of the day.

Ordered two plate of Chicken and we got some free bread and butter. :) We were so full after eating at Jurong Point. Lirong ate the most bread lorrrrr, stupid asshole! Wait till i show her boyfriend the way she eat! hehehehe. Went home after that. :) My lovely girls waited with me till the stupid slowpokez bus came!!!! Awww, thanks! :') I had a wonderful day with my girls! ^^ We plan to karaoke together some time! :D December hols??? :P See you girls real soon. It's a pity Anqi couldn't make it. If not it would be damn funnnnn! ^^ Love love love you girls.

Oh, and damn it. Facebook couldn't upload all my pictures. ): Guess I'll be uploading them some other time. :/

Anyway, my uncle had a motorcycle accident. But he's fine. Thank god! And my Granny's operation was a success! ^^ Looking forward to seeing her later. She's staying over at my place! :) Love granny (x infinity)

That's all! Facebook, please don't do this to me. ):

xoxo.

Seriously. Can you stop talking to me about how much you miss her and love her and stuff? You know i like you and yet you're blabbering away. If you miss her so much, go talk to her. And her. If you really think she changed, then I'll just tell you that she's shy to talk to you okay? If you want her to smile at you and stuff then take the initiative. And just stop talking to me about GIRLS okay? It just makes me sad and jealous -.- And i don't wanna feel this way. If you realise, I've been replying to you coldly and rudely and i wasn't joking at all. And when i said "lolol" it means i'm not fine. Stop making me... jealous. :(

You can be the pencil and I can be the paper.

I'm hooked up to Can You Keep a Secret. The book just makes me wanna read it even more. :) Anwwwww, might be going out to do homework soon with Zahra & Lenz? Or maybe others! :b

Right now, I'm super ultra bored. There's band tomorrow. -.- Anywayz!!!! I hope felicia lee comes for practice! :) So that I can gossip with herrrrrr! But she's going to wear braces soon!!!! :P Can't wait to see how she'll look like! Heehee, no wait. Huhuk!!!! :P

I'm so bored. And I've been watching Glee and doing Science homework! Omg Batrisyia's so hardworking right? :) Heehee!!! I'm already at epi 13!!!! :D Sorry Dorene! Niwayyyz, Maybe going out with Pri Schl clique on Tuesday to watch Toys Story 3 or perhaps Karate Kid? lololol, I know we're slow! Shudddddup~ Can't wait to meet them. Especially Verlynn, Begonia and Anqi!!!!!!! ^^ It's been so long.

I've been thinking. And thinking. And thinking. And up till now, I'm still so confused. What the fuck. fmlfmlfml.

Oh fuck yeah, I'm bored. ciao.

Lovelovelove. It's complicated.

Don't stop believing.

See that!!!! Cupcakes from Yunjie. :) Thanks beloved toot! (L) Anyway, went for Music project at Yashi's house. We heard a very retarded voice of a cat. The cat was moaning, like a human. It seriously scared the shit out of me, Siewhui & Yashi. Omgwtfbbqsauce. O_O Anyway, was playing Yashi's keyboard. :) And "doing" homework. Roflmao ~

Band tomorrow. I predict that it's gonna be boring. Seriously!!!!!!!!!!! And i hope that I can see XXX. HAHAHHA. Lame lame lame. _l_

Watching glee! Imma gleek!!!!! 8) kkkkciao. :)

iMissneedloveyou.

Hi. I don't wish to post about Band today if not I will start #$&!*-ing. :) But!!!! Mr.Er said we might be going Hongkong in December next year!!!!!! Then if I'm not wrong going Disneyland to perform or something??? Idk ley! Then me and Norita recommended Mr.Er to let us play Disney Fantillusion. But not confirm!!! Going with the Sec4s!!!!! :) Sho eggcitinggggg! Eventhough it's like next year's December. -.- Yayyyz, oh and so, Norita, Felicia & Jessica can hear me snore again! HAHAHA. OMG!!! AWESOME MUCH. :P kkkk, so eggcited. But it's not confirm and skali the trip got cancelled -.- Wtfffff. ): k choy!!!!

I haven't do my homework. Music project tomorrow. Damn sick of projects wtf? And homeworks????? Fukc okie???? kciao.

i want you to catch me staring, to show you you’re still the one i’m thinking of.

Went to meet Eileen, Xinzhi and Yashi today and we went to Siewhui's house to do our Math project. The bloopers were hilarious I swear!!!! :) After me and Siewhui did our parts, we went to use her computer and randomly stalked people in facebook and blogs! Awesome much ~ Missed her alot, surprisingly. She asked me out to Bugis but I got band. ): Sorry darllllllz. Helped her paint her nails a super ultra nice hotpink colour. But my skills weren't as good as Eileen's. ): The only finger i did nicely was her thumb, the rest were really epic fail. Sad sad sad!!! Boohoohoo!!!!

Went home soon after. :') Had a great day with my girls. Oh, i think i forgot to mention that I saw Waimun (Evil twinnie) on her way to Causeway Point to watch a movie. It's been a long time since I last saw her, missed ya twinnie! :D

Oh oh oh, can't wait for school to reopen, eventhough the only thing I'm afraid of is my uncompleted pile of homework. kkk actually the only thing I'm worried about is not being able to complete my Science summary. The rest are just projects and homework-that-you-can-copy-in-school. :) Oh. And I can't wait to receive someone's lollipop so i can suck it hard. And going to ask Zahra out for lunch with me, Faizzul & Lenz. Omg, i miss her like omgwtfbbqsauce. So many things to catch up!!!! And I miss Lenz's jokes. (Cheerup twinnie!!!!) And I miss making fun of faizzul!!!! Hahahaha, there's glee tomorrow!!! And B.Hills 90210. Totally missed the first episode. Nevermind. There's always the internet ~ (which is kind of fucked up due to Singtel)

GO SPAIN & ENGLAND. :D

-.- Omg. Just let me use this comp lah. omgwtfbbqsauce. =.= I'm only using this for two fucking hours just to talk to someone. And you wanna fight coz' of this??? Even I'm not fighting -.- Wtf. Haven't you had enough of using the comp!!!!!! I only get to use for 2 hours leh. Walao. Bitch. Damn damn damn irritating. Singtel, zzzzzz.

I thought of how he knew everything about me, and how if he were gone, part of me would be missing forever. I wondered if the person who really loves you is the person who knows all your stories, the person who wants to know all your stories. Oh, and here’s to you. Because I’ve never met anyone who makes a better you, than you.

@todayithought.tumblr

Today. I miss you. All over again.

You're like a candy with a surprise center.

BBQ yesterday was awesome. The food was great!!!!! :P I love Cik Mun's apple pie. Had street soccer. Team with my Dad, Sister, Adilah, Rasul & Insyirah ~ Hahahahah. We won. K, i didn't really participate. I was just anyhow-kicking the ball. Then slacked slacked slacked and was sms-ing angelolololol. Ton-ed via sms but but slept at 4 -.- Anywayyyyy, super ultra bored. ): ): ): Going JB to shop shop shop tmr. Hahahahhaah ~ Yayz! I'm gonna shop for more dresses and shoes, :P

Oh, and I can't wait for the YOG thing that I'll be going to when school reopens!!! hee, awesome! \m/ kkkkciao.

OH WAIT. DON'T YOU THINK JONGHYUN'S JUST SUPA HAWWWWT. HEHEHEHEHEHE. I LURRRRRRRRVE HIS BLONDE HAIR. AHAHAHHA JONGHYUN JONGHYUN JONGHYUN! I STILL LOVE TAEYANG LAH, BUT JONGHYUN SO HAWWWWT. TAEMIN ALSHO! HEHEHEHE. JONGHYUN SO HOT. :) BIGBANG COME TO SINGAPORE PWEEEEASE ):

BBQ was fun. Going to post more about it in the morning. Just reach home, tired. Someone's not online. ): Ton-ing with Lenz the dickhead. Street soccer just now was fun. Police car become taxi!!!! Fail ~ I want to stare at Jonghyun & Taeyang's face. Right now!!!!!!! :) World cup!!!! Go England & Spain. :b Kept seeing same numbers today, omg someone miss me! hahahaha, wdf. Zzz, walao. I miss miss miss (:

I wanna be a billionaire, so frickin' bad!!!!!!!!!

My first kiss went a little like this, smooch & twist, smooch smooch & twist.

Don't stop believing!!!!

I'm awesome, no you're not dude don't lie.

My life would suck withoutttttttttttttt you!!!! :)

xoxo.

99strawhearts for you!!!! :)

Offline messagessssssss!!!!!!! :)

HAPPYHAPPY.

VERYHAPPY.

SUPERHAPPY.

ULTRAHAPPY.

Remember how much Faizzul stinks?

Wait for me to online, pleeeeease. kbye! :)

You are the thunder and I am the lightning.

I know I promised myself to do atleast another homework today. But, guess what I'm doing now??? :b I know know know, fail. Hahahahhaa, seriously okay. I will start my other homeworks and finish it by the end of next week! Then planning to go out with Verlynn, Lirong, Heidi, Begonia, Anqi, Eugene to JP to probably watch movie? :) Planning with Bee & Qiqi. :) Gonna ask the others soon. So egggggcited. Please please please say you guys can come. I missssssss ya'll sosososososo much. ): Must come must come! :P

Anyway. Going for a BBQ with family and my mum's other friends' families later at Pasir Ris or something. Going to take loads of photos. Hopefully it won't be that awkward because I'm not so close to them. :) But going to meet all those cute babies and Adilah & Haikel! \m/ Wooo! Wait for me to upload the photos soon. Depends whether the stupid old comp will lag like mad shit or not -.-

I want my laptop!!!!! ): Stupid cock. My bro haven't send it for repair yet, sheeeesh. -.- So i'll have to wait till about the end of the month or so till my laptop is fine again -.- Damn it. ): I'm bored. Maybe I should do my homework. -.- Feel like going to limbang to buy straws so i can start making my 99 strawhearts for _____! *eyebrow up & down*

And before the holidays are over ): , i need to get a few things done:

- homeworks/projects.

- Outings with pri school friends.

- Revisions.

- buy someone's lollipop. @_@

k ciaociaociao. :D

Nobody, nobody but you. :P

“We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we

find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love.”

Agree! :) From Norita's blog. (:

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If we were a movie, you'd be the right guy and I'd be the bestfriend that you'd fall in love with.

Band today was okay I guess. Had committee meeting after that, was laughing my ass off with Felicia Lee man! hahahaha! Went to slack at Macs today. As usual. Seriously was super high and kept laughing with Norita, Zhen Jia and Jessica. Felicia was having stomaches so she was abit emo? :( Get well soon!!!!

Got my class tee. Think it's nice! Especially my name. Hot pink!!!!!!!! (Y) (Y) (Y) But i think the lamest thing is the "Zhenghua sec..." at the bottom of the tee! What's with the dot dot dot?!?!?! But cute anyway. :) I especially love the class logo. If only it was in pink! Anyway, special thanks to Xuankai and co. for making the class tee! \m/

Okay ciao.

I miss you miss you miss you miss you miss you!!!!!! :)

I think he has a girlfriend. (Y)

I'm still making those 99 strawhearts. But this time, i don't know who it's for. I'll wait till my heart tells me the answer. Because the heart always tells the truth.

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Wtffff lah Batrisyia. Everyday emo emo emo -.- Band tomorrow. Oh my mama. I'm waiting for someone to be online. ): k ciao.

빛이 당신의 미소를 지었을 수 있는 어두운 방

Hey there! :)

Oh, just so you know. The sentence above means Your smile can light up the darkest room in Korean. I used a korean translator, ofcourse. Got this from worldlifequotes. :P Anyway, I wanna watch Karate kid!!!!!!!!!! ): I think the boy is quite cute. :) I just realised I'm not free for the whole of next week. Wdfffffffffffff. Band + Projects. And I'm still not done with homework. Expecting myself to finish all of it by the end of the third week. I feel that June holiday's are kinda wasted for me, because I'm spending most of my time in school. It doesn't really feel like a holiday actually. -____-

So bored. So bored. Ohmygawd. That means I have to cancel Vivo plan with Verlynn and co. Augh!!!! ): Or maybe we'll just go watch karate kid at the last week? Wah, i feel damn bad about it. Fucccccccccck. K sorry guys. I'll try to make it up to you!!! :( Sorry.

Glee was cool!!!!!!! I'm not going to miss any episodes. Heeeeee!!!! :) K bored sorry. I shall go and practice Stay on my keyboarddddd. I got the starting right, then idk how to work the rest from there. It's the chords that are killing me. O_o" knevermindddz.

ciao. :)

It's either you or you. But who? I don't know how to say it. One's better than another. But I love the fucked up one more. Mixed feelings. ): And I can't be selfish right? -.- Faggggot. Fmlfmlfml. Plus the fucked up one already end our friendship (i think) but the better one very pure -.- Plus, the feelings not as strong. Wtf, I don't know who i like. Epic fail.

Hi. I want you to stay. Bye.

I'm so sorry but i love you da geo-jis-mar !

OMG. TAEYANG. YOU TELL ME CUTE OR NOT? x)

Hahahaha, look at his fatty arms and shorts! :P

Check out his nips!!!!!!! :) Muscular, wooo. TAEYANGFTW!

THIS ONE IS THE CUTEST :D :D :D

OR MAYBE IT'S THIS ONE.

TAEYANG RIDING ON A PONY!!!!! :D

TOP. TOP. TOP. (Haikel has his eyes, right? Natural eyeliner! (Y))

Taeyang looks retarded. :( But cute drawing. ^^

^^ :D I love his smile. :)

Hi, this is #2 in my wishlist. I want a new camera for my birthday! :P k, dream big Batrisyia.

Tell me goodbye. Tell me goodbye. Tell me goodbye. :)

Taeyang wants a girlfriend. :) Hi taeyang! *Waves waves* Do you mind a girlfriend living in Singapore, has 9 years of age difference with you, has alot of relationship problems but is a strong girl? Thanks for always making my day with your meaningful song and sweet smile. I love you.

(as if he's ever gonna read this)

xoxo.

I want a guy who will fight for me if I leave him, hold my hand if I let go, care for me if I don't show, ask me why if I cry, stay beside me and never say goodbye.

Went to Xinrui's house today. Met her at BPP and we didn't buy anything there. -.- Went to Bangkit market but didn't spot the cute guy that Xr told me about selling apples! Hahahah, wdfffff.

Watched The Reincarnation at her house. The second disc and the Together Forever doll is the only thing that scared the shit out of me. We were covering our eyes with Xr's soft toy rabbit! Hahahaha, major wdffff manz! :) & everytime we're s-c-a-r-e-d, I took photos with Xr! So it will distract us from being scared. :P Awesome right? Then we played her piano and made lots of video on us playing River flows in you. Well, mostly bloopers. We tried to make a good video, but we always end up making mistakes, laughing, slamming the keyboard! (Y)

I love her piano maxxxxx. Some malay dude sang Baby to both of us when she send me home! :) Cute maxxxx! (Y) (Y) (Y) Okie, wait for her pictures okay? She's gonna upload it in facebook soon, and the video! Hahahah, crap crap crap.

Korean fish, forever. (L) ):

I love.. (^^) And i wish you would too. Where is the love?

xoxo.

I don't know how, i don't know why. The feelings back. When i was staring at the soccer field, i felt like sitting down and crying. And hoping you'd be sitting beside me and look me in the eye and smile. That's all I asked for. I missed you. Even as a friend. I miss you.

I was staring at the soccer field today.. :/

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Band was boring as usual but I still attend it. Slacked at Macs with Jessica and Zhenjia and went home after that. I'm bored. Omg, i forgot that I'm suppose to be meeting Xinrui tomorrow. Wait, am I? :b

kkciao.

"Do yourself and your heart a favor; turn around and leave. It may not be what you want, but this shit is not what you deserve."

ohgay. No pictures, sorry. Asking Verlynn out to vivo. Watching incredibles. Miss someone eventhough I'm not suppose to. Nothing to talk about. Band tmr. Sister going M'sia with schl tomorrow and I'm not sending her off. Gonna miss her and her crap. I'm hungry. k ciao.

Don't you find the quote meaningful? :)

Go check out faizzul's blog. :P His latest post berrrrry nice. (Y)

I'm so afraid, that I'll have nothing else in mind to talk to you about, because we talk too often. ):

My knight in shining armour, is me.

I was bloghopping happily and decided to stop by an old "friend" 's blog. Major joke. I was what-the-hell-ing & laughing my ass off at her post. :') Ultimate cute. Come on, your friends are 14, they have the rights to choose whoever they wanna be with. They have their own right freaking matured minds to think - Are you trying to imply that your friends are immature? Cutie pie. There's no such things as friends-stealer. ^^ Anwwww, this is completely random. I'm just saying this out of what I feel is right. And i'm so bored right nowwwwww! I'm staying at FB's page for a nong nong nong time doing nothing. I'm finally going to start on my science homework. Roflmao. I haven't even touch it. Hahahaha, major wtf right? :b

Oh ya, my mama didn't let me use the better comps coz the whole family's afraid that I might spoil any electronics. I mean, seriously. My camera, my phone (actually it isn't my fault. I only dropped it twice. Damn it.) and my lappy (another thing that shouldn't be blamed on me! I didn't spoil it what. I can't be blame as to why it lagged after bro passed it to me what! He was using the comp for the whole day. -.- And i swear I didn't dropped it before! ): ). My camera is my fault but then you can always send it for repair. Use my money then -_- Nonono, my phone and laptop isn't my fault! :b But anwww, dad sending it for repair soon. Pleaseeee, i don't wanna be stuck with this lagging computer. ):

FB FB FB FTW. :) k random. Ciao.

I want someone wanting me & to feel how it feels to be someone's special.

I've got no comments for band today. Totally just -_- But we saw Pearlina during Sectionals. Hahahha (Y) K then the rest of the day was just uncomment-able, so whateverrrrr. :)

After band, went to Long John Silver with Norita teoteoteo. :) Wow, I love her maxxxxx man. Before we left school, we poked a hanging caterpillar, and screamed when it moved! Hahahaha, it was hilarious like omgwtfbbqsauce. :b

Anyway, we were talking after eating. Then there's this dude walking behind us. Staring at Norita. Rofl. And he was like...

Dude: you guys not eating right? *gives dickface stare*

Norita: *nods head*

Me: I'm eating ice. :)

Anyway, h2h with Norita was awesome. ^^ Hahahah, it was fun. Then send her off to LRT station and went to meet my Mum and siblings. Had dinner at delifrance and here I am. :) I'm ultra bored. Man man man. 987fm online. (L)

Hey asshole.

You know you don't really have to tell the whole wide fucken world that you don't like me. I know you deleted me off. I know you deleted two out of your fucken friend list. Well, seriously, it's your lost. Thanks for the true colours. :) Fuck your life upside down.

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It's not that we aren't meant to be together, I think that we're just not ready for forever.

Harrrrrrow. Didn't get to go out with Verlynn today because I didn't had the mood because of what happened yesterday, plus her Mama's sick. :/ Get well soon Aunty. :) Didn't felt like going out anyway, today. But i found out that my bro's going to meet his friend plus my mum's going town so i decided to text a few people and asked them out. Finally, Norita and Felicia Lim agreed. :)

Watched Furry Vengeance. Bought a super ultra big bucket full of popcorn. We got some coupon of which when we buy the popcorn, we pay lesser. Plus to mega big cups of Pepsi - So why not? :P Anyway, the movie was hilarious! Seriously, i laughed my ass off. It was hilarious maxxx ~ Especially the part when the raccoons farted at the person's face. Hahahaha, in the car! :D Roflmao! ^^ Saw Xuankai, Shiying and Mindy and wished Xk a happy happy happy birthday! :P

Had lots of laugh after the movie and we went to the neoprint booth to snap photos. We used the neoprint booth's curtains and the lightings. Slacked at the library and suddenly a Julias? aka cute little taeyang came talking to us with his cute baby language and sat beside us. Awww, so cute. And he even wanted to take photos with us. His mother was kind of, erm - stern? Hostile? Cold? Unfriendly. His sister was friendly. ^^ Met Darrel and his friend after that and went off. Saw this cutie in the library, hahahaha. Seriously - should've smiled.

Me and Norita noticed a Justin bieber look-a-like skater at the interchange. Hahahha, (Y) Melts! ^^ I had a fun day. I'm free. :D Thanks girls.

Thank you Verlynn, Shiying, Norita, Felicia lim, Jessica, Yashi, Xinrui, Zahra, Yunjie, Zawati, Siewhui, Dorene, Lenz, Faizzul and Farhan. Thanks for everything, lending me your ears and being a shoulder to cry on and the pillar for me to support. :) Not forgetting Guest and Bigbang & SHINee for making my day. :P Loves.

xoxo.

Song: Slow Goodbye.
Mood: Sad.

Dear N,

I wished that you'd view my blog as often as I view your facebook profile. Well, apparently, I can't anymore. Because you deleted me off your fb as a friend, guess you're telling me to fuck off from your perfect life and move on. I know it's been tough. What I'm expecting from you, is too much. But trust me, I've never asked for much. I just wanted to spend time with you, be it talking on msn/facebook or chatting via handphone - it's enough to please me. One sms from you and you already got me beaming like an insane girl. It's just, why don't you bother about me? You're different. The N i knew on 13th March wasn't the N i knew now. You really don't give a fuck about me do you? You, in fact, went around telling others that I'm annoying (just because I talked to you on fb while you don't have the mood), you scolded vulgars at me - thinking I didn't know. You told your friend you didn't know when you'd stop this r/s with me - well, you just did. I was really sarcastic with you in fb just now, i commented on your lame wall post like fucken' shit. I wasn't really bothered by what you posted, really. I'm not petty. I'm just disappointed, with what i found out. You had a handphone and didn't inform me? You went around cursing me? One moment you're hot and the next you're cold. I don't know what the fuck you want from me. You asked me to get a fucking life when you were the one who came into mine and screw things up for me. You made me fall even deeper everytime, then now you let me hit the ground. Thanks. My hearts says hold on but my head says let go. But you're the one lettin go of the 3 months. You forgot the times when i walked alone at night to refill your water bottle while you were sick during camp, you forgot the time when I was worried like shit when i found out you're going to have an OP, you forgot about the time when I was happy when you sms-ed me on my birthday. You forgot most things, but i remembered. You forgot about the time I was cheering on for you like an idiot by the soccer field while you were having your match. You forgot about the time when you said thank you to me for everything. You really forgot. Yeah, maybe I should really get a fucking life. But doesn't mean I can't love you. Trust me, you'll find girls very easy to come to you, there are already 6 liking you, I swear. Thanks for the memories, fight for me. My 11:11 wish didn't come true last night. Since it's not worth it anymore, I'll just share it with you. I wished for us to be together..

There are alot left to say I wish i could hug you and tell you that I really love you and then really just let go. Then again, I shouldn't. You're telling me to move on but I'm not willing. I know you're tired of me. I just love you so badly, it hurts.

xoxo.

It's just not the same, I can't stop pretending.

Harrrrrow! :-)
I'm determined to finish my Science homework by this week. Going to start doing it every night. I'll save the afternoons for using the computer, or doing other activites! :P I wanna go out nownownownow. I'm so bored. Most of them are at ECP now ~ Feel so bored, ohmygawd. :/

Maybe asking Verlynn to go out with me this Thursday because I wanna watch The last song! Plus, it's been a long time since I last went out with her. I'll see if i wanna go shopping as well, because my Dad's giving me extra money for passing all my examinations, huhu! :b

I should start making my hotpink candy beads into bracelets then maybe I can give some to my girlfz. Ahahahahah. Feel like drinking Caramel Frappe and eating Chocolate fondue! *slurps slurps* Long time since I last tasted my Double Cheeseburger and eat popcorns. Hahahahaha, omg right? Batrisyia's so fat. ): I don't eat it all at once luh, I mean, I'm just craving!!!! :P

Omgwtfbbqsauce, I wanna go out out out out out. ): Talking to Siewhui right nao! (L) I wanna go out with her or go to her house to slack/study soon :) Then we can rent CDs and stuff and camwhore like mad gay shits? :P I've got good imaginations, hurhur! (hahahaha, hurhur-ing is fun - inside joke ah Lenz!)

k that's all. I've been really random these few days. I caught myself staring into space, most of the time thinking about a lot of things. Hmmm, life sucks for now. :/ kthxbaibai ~

I know you're tired of me. I know. But how come on the same day that you admitted that, you asked me out? It's contradicting. Why are you so on and off? What do you want? I've always been asking myself that question. I never asked myself what I wanted, have you done that? Do i need to make you happy all the time? What do you want? Do you still love me? -_-

Now what?

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