I want to see you smile like you used to. Cheer up. I'm always here for you, always.

The space between us gets bigger and I don't know what to do. I don't know what I'm feeling either. I miss the past and how we used to be.

The only person who can be the reason to make me cry and smile.

I saw this on tumblr and I teared because it relates so much to me. So here it is:

Every Girl`s Dream:

• Get kissed in the rain.
• Have that one hot kiss where your pressed against the wall.
• Have a guy who thinks she`s the world.
• Have a guy who holds on as long as possible when giving hugs.
• A guy who whispers he loves her in her ears.
• Have that moment where you just gaze into each others eyes.
• When you cry, he kisses your tears away.
• When you`re not with your guy he`s all that you can think about.
• Wearing his jacket and every time you breath in, his scent surrounds you.
• A guy who will watch any movie with her, no matter how teary eyed she may get.
• A guy who squeezes her hand.
• A guy who says he loves her and means it.
• A guy who will play her favorite song outside her window.
• A guy who is loyal.
• A guy who will sing to her no matter how bad he is at it.
• A guy who will kiss her on the forehead.
• A guy who will call her beautiful or adorable. Not hot, fine, or sexy.
• A guy who will never judge her for how she looks.
• A guy who says cheezy stuff to her just to make her smile.
• A guy who`s the same when he is with her and when with friends.
• A guy who tells her everything honestly.
• A guy who`s good with her family and introduces her to his family.
• A guy who will always let her win.
• A guy who stands up for her no matter who it is against.
• A guy who calls her at night just to say ‘hi’ and see how her day has been.
• A guy who tells her that her smile makes his day and makes everything better.
• A guy who will sit on the phone with her when she`s sad, even if she`s quiet.
• A guy who she can hangout and have fun with.
• A guy who will just randomly call her for no reason at all, just because he misses her.
• A guy who will hold her hand through the roughest parts of life.
• A guy who would love her forever no matter the circumstance.
• A guy who wouldn`t mind her wanting to get all dressed up and do herr make up for him. Even if he says he likes her better without make up.
• A guy who runs his fingers through her hair, like he’s washing her worries and troubles away.
• A guy whom she can be herself with and he will never give a care and would still tell her that she`s amazing to him.

Bolded the ones that made me tear, because it's so true. :)

xxo

I love receiving random 'I love you' texts from you, it just tells me that I'm on your mind, you miss me, you're thinking of me and that you love me. Well, I love you too.

Happy 17th months dear. Thank you for staying strong and pampering me whenever I act cute with you, muahahaha. You've been the best. Thanks for spending time with me recently. Thanks for being so awesome & cute & hot! Work on your pacs just like how I'm gonna work @ losing 10kg for an asshole like you muahahahhaa. Ok lah, don't be fat fat ok. Not good. Always know that I'll be here when you're insecure and whenever you need me okay dear? I love you.

xxo

next to you.

Hi! I did alot of things all in a day, so I shall summarize it all because I'm really tired. :(

• Fetched Syafiqahthefaggot from Dhoby Ghaut because I'm just awesome like that.
• Met my Aunt & she treated us to Pizzahut! Om nom nom ~
• Walked around nex in search for our Racial harmony day accessories! & even bought ourselves 80cent cutie rings!
• @ Yiochukang MRT & met Norita & Felicia, miss these girls alot!
• Cab to NCC HQ & the whole parade was quite awesome.
• Fireworks fireworks fireworks! ^.^ (eventho I can't see it because my tent is blocking, sobx)
• Went home with dearest smellyboyboy after staring at him eating his pathetic cheeseburger @ Wendy's. I'd rather he get one at Mcdonald's ok! Tsk.

Overall, it was an awesome day! I know I've spent my day well today. Racial harmony day on Monday and we we we so excited.

Anyway, congratulations on finally completing your Guard of honor, Sergeant Faizzulfarez! :) I love you.

By the way: the person you're thinking of while reading this, is the person that matters most to you right now. Well, I hope I was on your mind because you are always on it.

Goodnight, sleeptight. xxo

I only want you.

Hi, what a boring Saturday. I was so fucking bored, I webcammed with myself in some unglam dress! Trololololol, >.< Went to Gran's and ate like a boss, omfg. Then went to Marina Bay to check out the awesome fireworks from the NDP rehearsals! Whoop, it was so pretty. Super duper pretty, & everyone clapped after the firework end! Hahaha, cool. Ok, that's all! I deleted Blackshot from my lappy because it's making it lag & there's viruses or smth! So, incase of emergency, I deleted it )': Sobx! (heartpain x10) Who helped me to delete it? ME! RIGHT FAIZZUL? Yeah, that's right sucker!

Anyway, while at Gran's i found a super beautiful photo of me. I didn't know it was me, until I really had a close look. Wow, i mean, i seriously didn't thought I'd be this pretty. So, unexpected. ^.^

So to end this post, here's the pretty picture of me in primary schl! Primary schl only and I'm this cool & pretty, omfg. What about now people? WHAT. ABOUT. NOW. Stop rolling your eyes.

*drum roll*

WAIT FOR IT!!!!!!

JENG JENG JENG!!!!!!!! :D

What the fuckery of holy fucks. Ikr, cute pretty and so fucking adorable, my IC photo! Fake. :) Anyone wants my number? It's 09203240394830950874. Anw, I know that sucker of mine still loves me for being so pretty now & then, whoop! I love you too sucker kental stinky smelly boyboy dear! _l_

Alright, bai! xxo.

What a boring Saturday. So, here's the question: What happens if I had a twin? :)

I miss you more than you ever know.

You should totally click this. TOTALLY.

Ok honestly, eventho I'm in E5 aka the last express class who will always constantly be looked down upon, criticized and demoralized yet again, I really feel like I belong. Here. Plus, we have 2 awesome t'chers who takes care of the class ^.^ Sending us to BR just to fucking get us demoralized is fucking stupid because it only wants to prove you bitches wrong about my class. We're the last class & we're noisy so you're assuming we have troublemakers? STOP PICKING ON US MAN, SRSLY. LAST CLASS, SO FUCKING WHAT. SO WHAT YOU MOFO. It's so unfair how we're treated like this okay? I just wish we'd get some justice somewhere. But, i honestly love my class after every bad incident we've been through tgt! Heh, some class spirit I have right? :)

(You should listen to never say never after reading this because I'm just so fucking determined after listening to that stupid JB song! Trolol, i'm just weirdcute like that.)

xxo.

I'm a happy girl today! Whoop ^.^ So to summarize the whole of today:

• Went Jcube with Syafiqah, Ridzman, Faizzul, Faiz, Ali, Zul, Azmi, Hadafi & Safwan! So funneh x10.
• Made new friends like Faiz, who kept killing me in BS! >:(
• BLACKSHOT FOR THE VERY FIRST TIME LIKE A NOOB g6. But not bad ok, i contributed to the group eventhough I'm the last plus it's my first time!!!!!! So it isn't bad. Blackshot is fun when you play it with a whole group of people. Teehee :)
• Syafiqah hacked my facebook (sigh)
• POPEYE'S FOR DINNER, om nom nom! I love the shrimps! ^.^
• Had to go home early (sigh) but it's ok!
• Fai thinks I look cute wearing his cap hahahahahahahahah yay!

Teehee, so i am a happy girl today. Okay, I want another lan session with the same people, sho fun pls! ^.^ Alright, schl tomorrow. Sucks okay? Bye.

I love you, F. You mean alot to me. :)

xxo.