You're not sorry, no no no

Hey thr! Sorry for the lack of updates! I promise I will once I have ze motivation to & as you can see. No awesome picture of myself. Well, everything in my lappy is gone so yeah! :( Anw, I doubt anyone reads this right? Means i'm talking to the moon k.

Oh w8, b4 i go. I'm moving on. I am. I seriously am. What a waste of time holding on to something who don't give a sh1t lul oh being so direct here. Hell no ex(s) can't be friends a few days/months after they're not tgt. Just sayin'. Plus, a boy has to learn to be decisive. But fuck no i'm not an option anymore. Be happy with whoever you wanna be. All the best!

xx

Be careful what you say, a girl remembers everything

Doubt anyone ever reads this but it's already been 2 months of trying to move on. 3 days ago, a year ago, we walked in the rain together for the first time. You held my hands for the first time. I hugged you for the first time. Happy 21 months of.. something. I remembered..

xoxo

My scars remained.

Hey thr! Had band today and I felt that I kinda wasted my time thr. Warm up & no conductor took us for practice today.. except 2 hrs later? So we all pretty much slacked & went out for sectionals only to go back up to the music room bcos ppl complained of us making noise and stuff. Sheeeeeeesh t(-_-t) Oh! Not forgetting the whole band (ok, actually it's just me, Royston & a few sec1s) count down to 11.11.11secs & made a wish. I wished about stuff like Band, School &.. us. Hopefully it comes true.

I tried Y.T.F @ Banquet for the first time. It tasted weird O: Ok random! But yeah, went home afterwards and watched pretty little liars on my awesome bed! Played random songs on the guitar & I feel like making a cover agn! Lul random

Nothing much. I'm kinda like in a confused state right now. Don't really know how I feel or should react after receiving this particular text. Speechless, to be exact. Oh well, life. Deal with it.

XOXO

p/s: Today, I'm gonna be honest with you.

It's over, I give up, you win.

Hello there. I've been thinking alot & it's true what Farhan said: "What's the point of being sad? We're teenagers. Enjoy being one." Ofcourse this isn't exactly what he said because his english sucks (ok just kidding!) but the points are there. &, true. What is the point of being so sad? It's true what Muhaimin said: "Love, to me, is pointless for now" I agree. What's the point of having love when it doesn't make you happy? And I'm still young. I have alot to worry about than to think about all this sh1t. Therefore, I thank you both for giving me such wonderful advice. Thank you Syafiqah, Norita, Zawati, Ain, Jessica, Ros, Ridzman, Sakinah, Nasrul, Willyn, Lenz and others for being thr. Thank you guys so much. ;)

Hmmm, okay enough. I had p6 outreach yesterday and it was fun! Heart-2-heart session with Willyn while pushing ard biscuits to everyone! Hahahaha. Those cute little P6 called the both of us "Biscuit aunties"! Hahahah. & me and willyn would go around finding cute little boys and calling them our boyfriends! Hahahahahaha ^.^ Nevertheless, it was an enjoyable day despite whatever fucking shit that happened after that which was so redundant and I do not wish to speak of it ever.

So, here's a picture of these 2 boys!!!!!!! Cute right? (~*.*)~

Actually, the purple boy looked like someone I know. Which was why I took a picture with him. But nah, this boy is cuter!!!!! And aw, his friend beside him wanted to join in too! :)

Oh, then today I went kite flying with my gaygalz! It's been super long time since I last saw them and well, honestly, I miss their jokes and all! Had a wonderful day with my girls despite having to rush home and still end up being l8. Hahahaha, love you Dorenez, Felili & Jess! :)

Band tomorrow. Just realise that I have school for the whole week. Oh gosh! Is this a holiday or whut? :(

XOXO

p/s: because i take back my words & ain't gonna waste my time.

I'm sorry I'm not what you wanted

Hello thr! Celebrated Hari raya haji and erm. It felt like any other typical boring day except that you eat alot. O: So now I think i've gained like a million KG from eating all sorts of food at my relative's place. Fucking fat faggot!

Didn't get to meet Syafiqah & Izyan though. That sucks! :( Oh well. Nothing much to update. Can't w8 to go lan on Tuesday & blackshot! Guess i lost my not-even-average 'skills'. Hahahaha ;) I hope someone will tag along tho obviously it'll be impossible but I've always hope he'd surprise me. (80% won't happen lul)

Augh, feel so fat & uncomfortable right now! Need to hit ze gym soon! Ta-ta, XOXO.

p/s: Let me be honest. I do miss & think about you at times. And well, as much as I know it's your lost, i know deep inside, it's also mine. XO

Will this matter a year from now?

Hello there! Went out shopping for the whole day today and it was awesome! Hahahah whoop! Must thank Ayah for sponsoring us as a family! Shopped till i drop at Forever21. Shiok to the maximum shizz!

& bumped into Farhan @ his workplace hahahahaha! Felt so awkward and funny. Well, nothing much today. I skipped the dental apppointment today because I was too tired & lazy! Hahaha, well that's Batrisyia for ya. Tomorrow's Hari raya Haji already. I hope my relatives at Mekah will reach Sg safely soon xx

Welcome back to the NCC ppl who went to Perak, especially Garwei the Walrus who owes both me & Ain souveniors! Muahahahaha ;) Oh, I kinda miss camwhoring with Ain & Zawati O: Eventho they're so irrinoying & it's fucking weird to say this but yeah, miss them both. hahahahaha oh stfu.

Alright, can't w8 to meet Syafiqah & ze rest of ma cousins tmr! :) Happy advanced Hari raya haji to all the muslims! Bye!

p/s: My heart was broken, I was hurt, I cried every week. But not anymore. Now I'm stronger. I hope you are too. As much as I h8 to say this, I still love you.

Keeping your pride and losing it all or taking a risk and maybe, just maybe, having everything.

Hello everyone! :) Augh, isn't he hot? Sex god alert! He's Ezra Fitz from Pretty Little Liars and he's so lkjaslkjaslasjlkasjlaskjaslkjslkas! He's like the hottest boyfriend among the other guys in PLL ok! Whoop!

Hmm, I had band today and it was fine. Mr.Er was stricter today & I think it's a good thing. O: He's like back to his ownself as in, b4 he was lenient and nicer and stuff. I prefer him being strict because by putting pressure on us, everyone makes music. It's true!!!!!! & Well, i think even the sec1s made music today. So, it's a productive Band day today. Felt so happy when the seniors came back to visit us all today! Missed 'em all alot!

O'right! I've got to visit the dentist tomorrow and have to wake up early. Again. t(-__-t) When can I ever wake up at like 2PM in the afternoon or smth?! Oh, did I mention i was almost l8 for band? Luckily I fastened my walking pace and well, reached band on time! #likeaboss

MT intensive next week for 3 straight days. I'm so not looking forward, really. I hope I won't be sleepy and stuff. I will persevere for Olvl's sake! Come on Batrisyia!!!!!!!!

That's all to post! Damn, I totally need a new URL. lul

Bye, XXO

p/s: Guess what, I still think about you and miss you at times, but I'm moving on. Happy?

But I like it better when you were on my side

Hello thr! Oh, had chemistry remedial and was 10 minutes l8. Mwehehehe! Met Sakinah and Syafiqah (who was 45 minutes late I tell you!) after that and went off to around choa chu kang, running away from strangers! Slacked everywhr and finally went up to my house to chill on ze bed! I just realise how comfortable my bed was lulul :)

So basically just slacked in ma room and did covers for Taylor swift songs (chey!) & stalkin' yo mum and stuff. Hahaha! Shall do that again whoop, whoop! ^.^

Augh band tomorrow. Well, the positive thing about it is that it will be from 10 till 2PM due to the O lvl! Shiok ah! I hope thr won't be any drama gg on lul & I hope I won't be late tomorrow. Hahahaha, 4evalate_96@l8ergetpunish.com

Alright, gg off now! But b4 that, shall end off with a picture taken today with my 2 ladies! ♡ ♡ ♡

Bye then, XO.

You've got to stop falling for people when they start to give the slightest bit of affection

Hello thr readers-that-do-not-exist! :) Yes, yes, I know. This is a very pale picture of me. Well, I'm kinda sick.. Sick of being fat! Chehhhh but I make no effort trying to work out. Eventhought I was motivated by watching some random 5 minute Cardio work out but still, laziness will always find it's way to psycho my mind and stuff! Dayyyum

So anyway, I had band today and successfully escaped from the naggings from my VP, tgt with Eileen, for being noisy. I have never supported the idea of having sectionals during major exams/in the Air rifle range. I realise how t'cher like to pick on me because apparently, I know how to speak up for myself. So yeah, go on and try to tear me down alright? Mofo. Oh, and well we were released early so decided to find a place to sit down and have h2h talk with my band mates. ;) Talked about everything. About band, school, relationship.. everything! & well, I'm glad I have such open-minded friends lul

Didn't watch PLL for the whole of today and felt so weird hahahaha (Y) Not really in the mood to watch shows. & Augh, feel so fat bcos daddy bought me fishball crackers which are my favourite. Despite not being hungry, I still eat it to satisfy my craving wtf t(-.-t) Chubby mcchubby.

Augh, feel so tired. I've been schooling as if it's not a holiday..

Mon: Band

Tue: Slack at home #likeaboss

Wed: Band

Thurs(tmr): Fucking Chemistry remedial

Fri: Band (But it's starting l8 tho, due to O lvl so it's ok!!!)

Sat: Dentist appointment @ 9.50AM (fucking shit, need to wake up sho early on a Sat morning?!)

Well, gonna continuously have Band practices every Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays! Oh, well. For the sake of our last concert I will try to be less lazy and be more responsible! ~(^.^~) Ah, so eggcited to learn the gimmicks for our concert. & I've asked Mr.Er if we could use the old Band U for this concert and well, thr isn't a final decision yet but I'll still insist on carrying out the petition with Zawati! mwehehehe \m/

& Oh, so NCC friends are going off to Perak tomorrow! Well, have a safe trip guys, all of you! :) That's all, bye! XO

Farken' h8 how things are so different right now. Can i just live in the past and stay thr 4eva? XO

Razbliuto: The sentimental feeling you have about someone you once love but no longer do

Hey thr! I know, long time since I last updated my blog. Life's been.. stable? Not as sad as I was before and things are gonna change. I'm gonna be happy. soon. Everything takes time, but I will be.

So it's Ridzman's birthday today! Too bad we can't bash him up hahahaha. So, happy birthday horsey! Well, I've been keeping myself busy by watching Pretty little liars, spending more time with friends and ofcourse with Band. Can't believe I'll be stepping down from band in 5 months time. I mean, wow! Just look at how time flies. O:

And gonna be taking O lvl soon too. Sigh! Really need to buck up man. Need to improve on everything! Anyway, Garwei's going off to Perak in 2 days so I hope he remembers to get me some souveniors! Whoop, and poor thang bcos he has sore throat right now and kept complaining to me but get well soon alright! Have fun playing with the water fountain! LUL

Alright, bye ewoks! XO

p/s: In case you dk what's an ewok, you shld totally google it and realise how both the ewok and you resembles each other. ~(*.*~) (~*.*)~