2013: Happiness 

Hi there guys! Yeah I know I haven't updated in awhile. Been busy. Busy lazying around hekhekhek! But i found a job - it's actually my worst comes to worst job. I'm a Barista now! First day is today. So I hope the people there are nice. I think my manager's a Filipino and pinoys are nice right? hahaha okay! So I'm here to say thank you to the people who mean alot to me!!!!! I do hope they're reading my blog. And I shall write my new year resolution at the end of this post! hohoho here we go go go! :-)

First and foremost..

4E5: Class of 2012 

Hello my dear E5! 

I'm not sure if any of you are reading this.. I hope some of you are! I'm just here to thank you guys so much for being sucha wonderful class. I look forward to going to school everyday to sit beside Johnathan cos he's just so funny! kekeke and not forgetting the ups and downs that we went through like the gay glee thing and those late night art night classes and when we all got into trouble because the Art students skipped school together! LOL (that one damn stupid but funny!) Not forgetting those days when we all teased Miss.Lee about marriage till her face was extremely red!!!! And how unlucky of us to continuously get picked on by Ang oh fuck that shit! But it was fun being with all of you for the past 2 years and I wouldn't have asked for a better class. I think we all matured individually and I hope we'll have class reunions 5 or 10 years down the road. It was sucha wonderful pleasure to be your chairman eventhough I have not done an excellent job as compared to Xuankai but I hope I have 'passed' as a Chairman and I hope you'll smile at me when we bump into each other outside! Have a lovely new year okay! All the best for your O level results and in your lives. 

x

 Joshua! 

Hey there Joshiwawa! 

This guy has been there through it all man. I remember that for every English class, both of us won't be listening to what the turnip's saying but we'd both be talking and talking and talking to each other. Talking about life and love and discussing about random topics. But most of the time, about love hahaha. He is one deep deep guy. And I remembered the days when we argued and when he pissed me off. But all in all he is one good friend that I can rely on when I wanna know about a guy's perspective. And he has never stopped being there for me since! He is one deep friend and the next girl who has his heart would be a very lucky girl. But I hope Josh, that you'll take things slow cos good things come to those who wait. Thank you for being such a good friend to me and for listening to me rant and cry and laugh and scold you. For those days when I  was such an asshole to you, I apologize. But thank you so much for being such a wonderful listening ear and a shoulder to cry on. You have been a great friend, a great help and a great partner in English class! I wish you all the best and happy new year! 

x

Not forgetting another 2 guys in english class who was there for me.. 

Garwei and Amirul! 

Hahah, well! I must especially thank this two duos because of this particularly one incident. When I saw him and her together. And i just got pissed and it was after school during english remedial. I couldn't even concentrate in class, all I wanted to do was cry cry cry. And both of them were there for me to hear me cry like a gay. And Amirul, surprisingly, gave me advices about letting go.. aishhhh and Garwei was being a listening ear, like always. And I really felt greatful to them both because it was really just so painful at that point of time and both of them were there for me. Ofcourse there are days when they both pissed me off or when I pissed them off but they're nice friends and it's cos of this incident that really look at both of you in a different light haha really!! So thank you so much for being there and for listening to me complain and bitch about people and play stupid games together hahaha Rock paper scissors lizard smock!!!!!!! 

Section 2: Clarinets! 

Hiiiiiii :-) 

Bunch of crazy kids i must say. Seeing their face 3 times a week and I'll never get sick of them! I know band is tiring but you can pull through okay? Afterall, all you do is sit and blow...... hahahah where got tiring?! So yeah, teaching you guys during sectional was so hard because different people have different learning pace and I'm sorry if there are days when i lose my patience and snap to any of you and when I scold you and all that, i'm just so sorry. I hope you do understand that this is for your own good and see! I heard that ya'll are the best section in Band now! So keep it that way and make sure you motivate other sections to do better. SYF is next year and I'll definitely come back once in awhile to visit and help out. All the best my clarinetists!  Always remember that no matter how gay and stupid it is, talk to your instruments okay! You'll miss band when you leave, trust me, so make the best out of your time there! 

x 

SIEWHUI!!!!!! 

She's the girl who saw me through it all! :-) 

HAHAHAHAH the top pic is so funny i can't even.... Anyway, this girl is one strong girl man. She's been through so much trouble and so much shit in this school. Ever since she got her heartbroken, life sucks for her and things weren't going so well for everyone cos of that. And I'm so sorry there are nights when you cry and I wasn't there. But I missed you being so happy in Secondary 2. Remember those days when we both spazzed about the love of our lives? And we'd be like "And then he......" "YAAAA OMG!!! HE ALSO DO THAT TO ME!!!!!" hahaha, we were so young back then. And we didn't know love could hurt so bad right? And then there'll be lots of bitch fight between us and I'm glad it all stopped. And you, forever distracting me during Science class >.< HAHAHA but it's okay!! I guess all you wanted was to catch up with me and we needed someone to talk to. And I remember going to your house time after time and just sitting down and talking about life and how ugly we'd always feel about ourselves. I think we've been through alot. And remember that ton session? :-( It was so scary Siewhui, i almost lost you. I really almost lost you and that's the worst that can happened.. but I never wanna talk about that ever again because I'm glad you're still here and I'm glad I called the right person and she called you at the right time. You are a motivation and an example to me. You were so broken early this year and everything around you hurts but look at you now, so beautiful, stronger than ever, happier than ever. You met your source of happiness that you know you deserve and for that, I believe mine will come when the time is right too. Some have it early, some have it late. Thank you so much for that random long text that I needed when I was down a few weeks back.. and we chatted till 3AM and I sincerely apologize for bitching about you so much. Haha, yes I'm a bitch. But I'm a nice bitch and you love me and I love you too!!!! I hope this happiness that you're having will last for eternity and I hope life has more meaning now that you have a complete "set" of everything - in terms of family, friends and boyfriend! Never feel insecure anymore, you are getting prettier day by day and someone is there to remind you that you are. Love yourself siewhui, all the best for O lvl results! We should meet up, and I'll always be there for you. This is my oath to you ;-) 

x

CHUA XINRUI :-) 

My idkwhatidkwhatidkwhat great friend! hahahaha :-) 

Xinrui ah rui bunneh! You're sucha dear friend. You're the fun friend that I can always hang out with and not feel bored! That friend that I can just randomly call up and just crap hahaha still remember those days when I go to your house and we'd play the guitar or the uke or the piano and make fail covers holyshit. I'd love to look at those videos a few years down the road and just laugh my ass off at how retarded we sounded. HAHAHA harmonizing forever fail all cos of me!!!!!! Now, serious stuff bitch. You're a great friend and you're willing to learn from your mistakes and change for the better. I'm sorry there are days when you were sucha bitch and I became a bitch back (which was very wrong of me) but I love spending time with you and camwhoring and I just loved the day when we had to go out and about for your check up to and fro and to and fro. Am i a great friend or whut?! HAHAHA but it was really a fun day out with you and we should do it often. I hope you excel in music and when you make it to KPOP or JPOP one day, I hope you'll remember me and always bring me on tours hahaha watashit. I hope I'll be able to see you in SP gurrrrllllll. I'm also glad that you're willing to take it slow because you know true love is out there somewhere right? All we have to do is wait! You are never alone, my friend.We'll wait together. hohoho, no more chasing! Let it blossom gurl, let it blossom! Thank you for the X'mas gift and have a blessed year ahead.

x 

FAKHRUL!

One caring friend. Always calling him 'FAKH' in school but I'm too used to it, even infront of teachers hahaha shit. I remember those late night whatsapp chats we'd have till 2-3AM talking about life and how we're feeling. I think we're both going through about the same at that point of time and it feels good to share my feelings with you bro! You're like this brother who's constantly there for me without fail. Everytime you see me sad on twitter, you'd immediately ask me what's wrong. That's just how concerned you are about everyone. So thankful to have met you and sad that we only got so close this year but you're one true friend and I'll never forget segala jasa-jasa kau yang kau buat pada aku. I hope you'll find your happiness soon in poly or smth. And always remember that He has greater plans for us and there's a reason why it didn't work out or why it all happened. Happy new year!

FARHAN! 

Sup midget!!!!!

You're like so strong and you should know that. I remember math classes when I'd share my problems with you and you're there listening. You're a great listening ear bro, you really are! Still remember days when that bitch would call me fat and I called you up to cry... wah damn sad. And you, Dinie and Fakh planned to go jogging with me to help burn all those calories. Terharu ye, aku terharu hahaha thank you so much for being there since Day 1. Since i got my heartbroken.... since everything started. Just thank you. I know this year has been tough for you and to think that we actually had a cold war this year! Even on twitter, ewah! Well, lucky we put our egos aside and talked things out. You're like a really dear brother to me and I know things haven't been going so well but it's time to pick yourself up and appreciate and cherish everything you have now! Especially the girl of your dreams. I can read you like a book man, especially when it comes to her. I hope you and her would be fated together and that things won't be smooth-sailing but it will always be okay at the end of the day. I hope life gets better and that your ibu akan ditempatkan di antara kekasih-kekasih Allah s.w.t. In shaa Allah. :-) Stay strong my friend. 

x

UNDERGROUND GROUP!

They're the ones who went through heartbreaks with me. ;-) The ones who actually bother to go to gym every Saturday to lose weight together. Just cos we wanna be fit and look better.. and cos we were most of the time sad. But these girls are really just the bomb man, the bomb! They were there for me at the most bitter part of my 16 years of life which was late last year when everything went tumbling down..... and they were there. Remember those night when we argued with ___ and we had an OTP conference for the very first time and we talked and laugh about everything. It was so fun, eventhough it was our first time! And we were so comfortable with each other. Thank you girls so so so much okay. I really love you guys and I'm really proud that all of you made it to Secondary 5! I knew i'd see you guys again next year. Thanks for being there girls, really. Go heron ewahhhh :-*

AMY NATALIA!

 Hi soccer captain!

In the previous thank-you-for-this-year blog post, i didn't have a pict with you... and well! Now I do. Amy amy amy. Alah, aku nak thank you la banyak banyak sebab kau selalu there for aku. I didn't expect us to be close and I'm thankful Allah brought us 4 together somehow. I really didn't know how it happened. It would be fun if we met earlier. Didn't know we could clique you know. Camps would be so awesome if we'd knew each other earlier hahaha :-) Remember late last year when we both were so sad.. and you had to move on and i had to move on and we both had hard times moving on but look where we are now. No longer grieving over the same old person. Maybe there are nights when we both would talk about it, but just feel sad a little but no longer grieving! Amy, we're stronger than ever girl hehehe. I think we've been through alot this year. From the healing of broken hearts to the losing of friends to everything.. but I'm so glad we're still goodfriends. I also love how we'd always remind each other about our religion and how Islam is so beautiful and discuss topics in UG hahah. Ni serious, kite kadang-kadang macam serious sangat ye bile bobal pasal agame hahaha. But, I hope one day a guy will love you for that. In shaa Allah.

SAKINAH!

hi hi hi i wonder if you read my blog O:

In UG we're not the closest.. but we're definitely gaygay together hekhekhek! I think you're a strong girl who secretly have a crush on alot of boys eh ewah ewah ewah!!!!!! I think you look really pretty in this picture and you look pretty everyday. :-) Thank you for being there and for teaching me how to be patient. You're such a strong and independent girl and I love you for that. I also love you milo dinos because it's awesome. Nak movie marathon pat rumah sakinah lagi :-( hehehe study hard, play harder! I'll see you in poly in a year! hehehe

SISTERROVE! 

SYAFIKUEH AH!!!!! The one who saw me pull it through.

Hi. Omg everytime blog about you, must always remind ourselves of how much we both hated each other in secondary 1 HAHAHAHA gosh, i really miss you :-( Last time we'd always meet up every week of the holiday. Now, both so busy. Aish... but anyway. Here's one good paragraph for you my darling my angel my sunshine! Aish sya, I really wanna thank you for being there since the end of sec2. I really didn't know how it started but we just cliqued and BAM, the bitches unite. Ya you hate me cos of the most stupidest reasons bitch. hahaha but really. I remember those days when we'd OTP and talk about life and love and everything and I can just call you up and cry.. and i saw you cry and you saw me cry and we both always cry cry cry isn't that the worst feeling ever? And when you were so down last year and we both were determined to lose freaking weights and be more confident about ourselves. Well well well, look at where we are now. You're so beautiful now and you already found your happiness and (in shaa allah) the love of your life. And I remember you tell me one night that "you should go with the flow, because it will eventually lead you somewhere" and I really am going with the flow. And I know Allah has greater plans for me so thank you so much. I like how we'd both always feel the heartpain of each other and we're so so serious when we talk about boys. Like it's no joking matter... because i think it really is no joking matter. And you'll always have something to say that will light my ears about matters that are so heavy and painful. I still remember when I called you a few weeks ago and I kept talking and the tears just kept flowing.. and you knew what was gonna happen you just couldn't bare to let me know. Please let me know earlier the next time. Atleast I've been "warned" before anything happen actually.. but yeah. I should really listen to you because I guess, a bestfriend's gut feeling is very important when it comes to relationship! Thank you so much for everything this 2 years. It's 2 years only and I feel like we've known each other since we were in our parents' tummy hohoho. I hope you'll have a blessed new year, a blessed life with your boyfriend and stay pretty forever my girlfriend. Muah! 

 x

 NASRUL! 

 eeeeee, bat so fat :-( 

My very very very handsome bestfriend. 

Hey Nas, 4 years of friendship isn't it? 5 years starting tomorrow!!!! 5 is sucha huge number hahahah omg but it's so cool. He's this guy who's always there for me and I love how we'd always go crazy crazy crazy till we see the... no. We'd always go crazy when we see each other! hehehe i just love nasrul man, he's the best. So much memories together. Thank council for that. I think we've been through quite a lot eventhough we're not in the same class and all. And I remembered before the math N lvl paper when I just wanted to wish him good luck and suddenly we're sitting down in the canteen talking about life and everything. One listening ear indeed. One particular incident i'll never forget was when I was feeling so low and called him up to find out where ___ was and I just burst out crying on the phone, idk why.. :-( but Nas was there for me and he said he was worried.. awww that's just damn sweet. And yeah, he's always there for me. And I wanna thank him for being sucha great friend! I hope Allah will let you meet The One soon and i'm glad you know how to take things slow. Have a blessed year ahead and we better meet up soon nasrul, we better!!!!! 

LENZ ANGELO! 

This one guy who's been there, done that, been through it all with me!

Currently in pinoy wtshit. I wonder if you're even gonna read this but I'll still post this for you bitch! Hello there my dearest beloved wubbly fat bff to the extreme f until idk where the fuck f ends up! okay lameshit. First, i wanna say that... I MISS YOU BFF! PLEASE COME BACK WITH SOUVENIORS!!! Now, for the thank you parts. Heh, thank you for always being there no doubt man. Sometimes when I read through our pasts chats, it gets so funny how we're always scolding each other! Now we're like so serious.. too serious ah. Too deep. Too emotional. So gay..... but anyway. Aish, lenz lenz. You've seen me through it all. Since year 1 man, since year 1. You saw me when progressing towards ___ and how it ended and how I'm healing and how I met sooooo many different guys and how it all didn't work out. And you saw me cry, laugh, get mad. You saw me through everything. You saw me through it all. I'm so thankful god made us bump into each other. Must thank your friend and my friend cos if not for them hahha (yknow, i know) and we share so much memories together for the past 4 years in this school. Well, it's only the end of the year but never the end of our friendship okay. Never! :-) Still remember the first time we OTP during the lower secondary days.. i was doing the talking. hahahaha lameshit. And then there was the last phonecall before you went off to Philippines and we had this major major major heart to heart talk. All out man, all out. I just love talking to you and knowing that everything will be okay again. And no matter how many mistakes you made or I made we'd always forgive each other. I think we really did hurt each other alot this year. I can't believe we almost lost the friendship... but you're the one person who sacrificed so much for me so thank you for that. Really. So many inside jokes, so many stories. I wish i could make a timeline right here hahaha but nah, thank you. You'll always be that hot guy bestfriend every girl wants and can't have HAHAHA because you're MY bestfriend. Nothing can change anything about this friendship. You study hard and I'll see you in poly 2014 okay. I really wanna see you man. We should meet up soon! :-)  

never get sick of this photo, ever. 

Honestly just proud to say that they're my boys. Forever here for me. And I'll always be here for them too.  

x

NORITA!

NUTASS oh NUTASS! 

you're this one crazy girl that I'll always always love no matter how annoying you can get otp with your bapok voice. Omg, i swear you should quite the bapok voice or one day. I will kup!!!!!! hehehehe but anyway thank you for being there for me like all the time. I'm so sorry these few days I've been busy going out and all but we'll definitely meet up and OTP and there's so much stories I wanna share with you but just so little time :-( You were the one who pull me through when i was at my lowest and just showed me that life can get better with or without a guy because all I ever need are family and wonderful friends like you, norita teo! :-) I still remember this very very tragic day when me and __ are over like for real, and you came all the way to the fourth storey to find me.. and we sat outside the CLC and i just cry and cry and cry and you ran to the toilet and gave me a big ball of tissue and woah, i used them all.. I think i really need it. And i need someone. And i couldn't even concentrate in class. It was the worst feeling ever and you were there. And late in the night you'd call me up and I'd just talk about the same old person, and you'd always be willing to listen to the same old story and come up with new advices time and time again. And when I'm going through major fights with people or my family and you're there to cheer me up... You're this friend I can just call up and cry to and I thank you so much for that. And there's so much memories that we share together and we'd never get tired of each other! And you're just there. You're always there. And you're always putting others before yourself.. which is not good most of the times but what do you care anyway. I wish you'd love yourself more and I'm glad you're starting to. And then there was this year when you saw me spazz over SO MANY BOYS holyshit. Obviously it's all infatuation hahaha but you were still willing to spazz with me and that's one thing I truly love about you nutass! And then when i got my heart broken again and cried on the phone, you're just there listening to me cry and spamming advices. I'll never be able to spam advices like you would and my advices would never beat yours.. yours is seriously the bomb man. And I've told so many people of how great of a friend you are and I want you to know that. And I hope life gets better for you and that a guy will finally learn to appreciate you and that people will start cherishing you. I hate the way people take you for granted sometimes.. I want you to love yourself norita. Anw, you tought me the true meaning of friendship and I want you to be a happy nutass forever!!!! Have a happy new year babe! Muah :-*

x

SITI ZAWATI! 

Hi zawati. 

You this cute girl i lap lap lap chu! Forever my MSN buddy/WA partner. Since sec1! hohoho we're 4 years old now. Fifth starting tomorrow! Glad to say you saw me slim down HAHAHAHA and saw me grow. And i guess you kinda saw me throughout the heartache days and all from last year onwards and I'm thankful for that. I can honestly say that you've matured from a shallow nerd to a more deep beautiful girl who finally found her source of happiness! ^ ^ I'm really so happy for you Zawati. Thank you for being there when I randomly just whatsapp you about whoever I'm emoing about. I'm so thankful Allah let me meet such a beautiful girl with a beautiful heart - eventhough you used to find me so annoying. Oh crap, still remember you asked me "Actually why ah you so annoying last time?" HAHAHAHA cb kau pikir aku boleh jawab itu soalan pah ninabz!!!! hehehe i still love you lah saranghaeyo baybeh. And I'll never get sick of our whatsapp convos because they're forever so full of joy and laughter. Especially those nights when we discuss soccer or when I can't watch kagawa play and you'd make me jealous. Bitch! But I love talking to you, you're sucha fun girl. And what I've learnt is that when you've decided on something, you'll stick on it. Firm girl indeed! I'm so contented with my life because you're one of the wonderful friends who'd make my day shine brighter than the sun and I love random outings with you. We'd always have dates together now don't we? hehehe I wanna wish you all the best in life and it's obvious this is not the last of us.... we always make plans with each other aish why are we so adorably sweet?! I want to see you stand up on the O level results day for being the top student in school and yes, i'll tell the world you're my friend bitch HAHAHA love you so much wadey :-*

FARIHIN! 

Oh pari-pari - she's been whatever I've been through and it's good to have someone who knows how I actually feel.

Prennnnn, i want to take this opportunity to thank you so much okay! So so so much for being there. Didn't expect us to be this close really. It's funny how we weren't even close at all. It all started from early this year and BAM! Now we're like retards!!!!! Just thinking about the crazy things we do together makes me laugh man. Asal gay sangat ni asal asal asal. We'd always have so many retarded plans to do together. And I love how mostly it's major impromptu! Unexpected plans always turned out fun. And you're such a pretty girl and we're forever in the same boat.. but now you're in a better boat and I'm happy for you really ^ ^ And i'm so thankful to Allah for allowing us to cross each other's path and meet. And remember those days where we spend time talking about everything. We're always talking about love and life now aren't we? I kinda knew right from the start about how deep you are and didn't expect us both to always be on the same page about almost everything. You're always the person who'd never fail to ask me to go for it. I remember what you say, "I don't understand! Why give up on your source of happiness bat? Why?!" hahaha yeah that kind scared me. But it made alot of sense. It really does. You're always supporting my decisions and choices. And teaching me the true meaning of patience and what true love is. And i do hope yours and Farhan's love is true. I actually really can see you both getting married a few years down the road. I'm actually very thankful to know that I have a friend who always pray for my happiness and just the same, I do for you too! Our whatsapp convos aren't really conversations... it always ends halfway and we'd always spam each other advices and long paras and I feel greatful for those long paras of things I'm suppose to do and makes sense. We're just not the whatsapp type, don't you agree? But when we meet... that's when the insanity begins!!!! You're always the friend who'd be willing to do crazy stuff with me like playing in the rain or walking barefooted after prom. In a dress. How funny!!!! hahahaha but yeah, it's fun to do this kind of things with you. And knowing you have a friend you can rely on and a friend who supports you for everything and anything that you do. I'll never stop praying for you and Farhan's relationship and also for your happiness! Thanks so much for all the advices and when life really sucked and you do know what to say. The one incident that made me realize what a true friend you are was when you'd risk O levels to go out with me to watch a performance. I don't know but, that made me realize how wonderful you are and nice of you and how you're willing to do all sorts of things just for your friends to be happy. :-) Thank you Farihin, thank you! I really don't know what to do if you didn't have went really hahaha. I wish you all the best in your life and yes, we're gonna be housewives together and bake for our kids and husbands! we should meet up real soon again babe! Love you so much hekhekhek gayfag!

 My girls! 

x

CHEW SZEHUI! 

Hello my math partner! thank you for being there for me during math hahaha and teaching me math and when we talk about love it gets all serious. And you're always there supporting me no matter what i do and which guy i go for hahahaha awww just thanks. Idk why you're so scared of me really :-( I'm sorry if you think i'm so fierce on twitter hahaha but you're a nice friend and I think i should thank you for that. And for being a wonderful listening ear. I hope things are going well for you and your love life and I wanna wish you all the best for O lvl results and thank you once again for all that you've done and the positive advices that you've given me! ^ ^

x

Done! New year resolution? Happiness! Simple and easy. Have a feeling 2013 will be a great year. No reason not to be. First time I'm feeling the 'great year' vibes! New year is just next door. It's sad that 2012 is ending because it's been a rocky rollercoaster year for me. Hahaha crazy, 9 guys in a year and none worked out. Crazy just crazy!!!! Same old same old problem. 2012 teaches me to take things slow and that love can wait and that good things comes to those to wait so I shall, and will wait! :-) I'm so thankful Allah allow me to meet such wonderful people in my life and that I've learnt to be contented with everything that I have now. I hope my O lvl results will be okay and that I'd get into my desired poly course. Gonna start off the year with an empty jar and fill it with happy things that happened along the year. Goodbye 2012!


xoxo

:-)

This is dumb of me.. and I know i shouldn't but I want to. I mean, it's 2012. It's official. It really marks the final final final goodbye of the final farewell ever.. haha what am I saying. I'm just saying that I'll never get to see him again. And it sucks. But i want to thank him because 2012 marks the end of my secondary school life. And half of my secondary school life was shared with him. And I shouldn't mention his name here but I'm sure some people and he, for himself, know who he is. And i just want to thank him for everything. I've never regretted knowing you and I never will. And i know it's weird.. but you had a place in my heart which is why I still feel a special feeling eventhough it's been so long. More than a year already. But I'm glad everything's better now. No more hatred, no more anger. Just forgiveness. To move on, is to forgive. I must admit i am moving on but there are days i still do think of you. I guess i'm still learning to unlove that part of you in my heart, that's when i can really move on for real and gosh, i don't know what signs these are. Allah's been showing it alot. Everywhere. Anywhere. It's funny but, oh i don't know. But i'm really happy for you that you've found your own happiness. I still do find out about you once in awhile and I'm glad you're happy now. We won't be in the same school anymore so yeah, i guess I'm letting it all out. What i was really hesitant to say at prom night was that I'd really miss you so much. I doubt you'd read this and if you do, i'd be happy to know that atleast you know how I feel.. or should i say still feel. But all in all, you have been a great guy and I'm so thankful Allah allowed me to meet you and experience a journey with you by my side for a period of time. Now that 2012 is ending.. and we'd most probably not see each other ever again, i just want to wish you all the best in life. Really. I'm so proud of you. And i remember i promised I'd be there when you take your results.. and I was.. and to know you did so well, it just makes me feel so happy for you. Sincerely. Thanks for the memories, and if we do see each other outside.. I hope we'd smile. Happy new year!

x

 some pain makes it worth it 

Hi there! This is gonna be one long long long post about my week. If there are readers.. cos I know one of em's going away on a long holiday aissssh okie anyway! Went picnic with the girls @ Marina Barrage (12/12/12)! Had a hard time trying to fly my fairy mermaid but it did flew up high okay! *salutes* 

Oh yes, lotsa food just for 3 girls. I felt like a major fatass! I brought along some salads, french toast, durians and nuggets! Zawati brought some pizza bread, biscuit & tuna (which we never touched at all, she must be a happy girl munching on those at home ewah!) and also Spaghetti from her mum! Farihin brought her egg mayo, some keropok and french fries! The heck, that's alot just for three girls okay!!!!! But we managed to finish most of it so that's good and anyway, it was the first time we went picnic so.... yeah, we should invite more people next time to help finish up the food hohoho!  

And then it kept raining and stopping and raining and stopping till it finally finally stopped and we quickly rushed out to get the mermaid flying likka gayfag in the sky and also lie down and talked about life and freakin' camwhore keke so many retarded pictures. Most of them deleted. But zawati still had my beaver/monster face posted in facebook while she saves her own face and covers them with stickers... bitch. Okay whatever, i'll have my revenge one day hehehe :-*

I had a wonderful day on 12/12/12 because I couldn't stop laughing! Laughed till i teared, that's the best laughter one can ever have! Angauuu angauuu meowwwwwww HAHAHA guess only fari will get this hahaha 

PICTURE SPAM! 

Good good food. 

 ahaha god i look so drunk and shag 

 Twinnies for the day! 

 Hahaha shit i just find this picture so funny and retarded! And look, it's the Singapore Flyer at the back! 

yep, that's all about picnic! WANNA DO IT AGAIN WANNA DO IT AGAIN WANNA DO IT AGAIN BANANANA BANANANA BANANANANANANANA! Okay the hell bat! Up next.....

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NEXLIONS CUP @ JBS! 

Okay so basically it wasn't sucha good day.... to begin with. Aish, i don't know. Things just weren't working out and I felt so down for the whole freaking day. But thank god I have these friends who were there for me at my lowest.

Met dinie and we updated each other about our lives and waited for the rest at Jurong East. It was awkward because of some stuff but I did try to make things not awkward but aissssshhhhh ouch charlie >: And then when we reached the stadium, LFC and MUFC fans were separated but actually we can choose to sit together because YO-FREAKING-LO but nooooo we were all separated and that made my day worse! :-( And the ManU match was krik krik because the Portugal players were damn good. The freaking striker runs likka laksdjasljsdlkjas i tell you, a  laksdjasljsdlkjas!!!! But ManU's number 14 looks cute somehow - just that he has a really slow reaction but his skills ain't that bad! ;-)

The Liverpool vs SG match was more happening because, duh Singapore's playing! And I loved how i'm forever sitting around really really crazy soccer fanatics who curse and swear at the players! And the fun thing was when we all joined along cheering with the Makcik ahahaha okay funny max! But there was one SG player who was really good! Number 23, iqbal? And then there was this Nazrul and Shafiq or smth! I remember their names cos they're good and the Makcik kept cheering for them! But LFC won, though I think that goal was a really lucky one! Just pure luck! And now, picture time!

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 Oh dinie. I remember I broke down halfway talking to him and he was there for me and pat my back to calm me down. Thanks so much, really. 

 SG vs LFC

That's all for soccer! Went back home without actually saying a proper bye-bye to my bestfriend. Tsk, it was his last day of seeing me before he flew off and yeah, well. Things just don't go your way sometimes. But everything's fine now. We settled things out and heck it, i just can't afford to lose him and for the friendship. And I just love talking things out with him because we always talk things out when we're both ready to accept different opinions about each other and some little truth that were bottled up, we just let it out and we're just not afraid to let each other know about the emotional stress that we both faced - because of each other. And I just feel so thankful and calm that everything's alright now. And when we let out some secrets that were totally gay.. And we both sacrificed so so so much for the friendship, only to watch everything go to waste?! HELL NO. We're gonna grow up together as bestfriends and whatever happens in the future will happens and when we're certain then we'll take action but either way, nothing's gonna change what we are god bat is being so fucking gay. ish! but you know what, all this pain is worth it because it's for a friend, a bestfriend, and someone I know who will never leave me even when times are the toughest for both. Aish, there's always this period of time when we both will go through the same shit. And well, i'm glad everything's fine now! Finally finally over. Dammit, we shld've talked earlier........ but I bet i wouldn't get to hear him sing if we did HAHAHA oh fuck yes. Only heard him sing after 4 years of friendship kau bodoh pe sial!!!! okay enough gaying.

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Lastly, chalet! It was fun because well yeah, we talked about our lives and everything. They're like my family really. Childhood friends. I want my kids to be goodfriends with my bestfriends' kids when we grow up and hav a family and all that. And we're gonna have chalets like this and have lotsa fun karaoke-ing through the night! Awww now I feel like I can't wait to see what the future holds.

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Dinie and Farhan's trying their luck in getting the tix for the SG vs Thailand match. They're standing in the rain rn and I feel so bad. Please save some tickets for us.. if not for us for them both because they really queued for me and Fakhrul. Please please :-(

That's all! Have a great week ahead! It's Sunday today. By right, it's the start of the week but by left, Monday is a new week so have an awesome week ahead!

xoxo







p/s: I'm waiting for a phonecall... but if I'm a little too late I hope you see this: Take care and I'll see you next year, bff!