Some things are worth it. 

Sup. Let's make this a short quick post. Cos life's preddymuch mundane I guess. School's been.. crazy. It's more than crazy. O lvl's in a few days.. 20 days or lesser? Damn. I don't know. Just feel like I'm not prepared. Should've started since the beginning of this year, or last year. What have you been doing, Bat? :-( 

So it's been sucha long time since I last spam pix with my beloved Siewhui! kekeke, missed hanging out at her place. After Os then, babe! Together with sisterlove. ;-) 

Anyway, nothing much. Been hanging out with Lenz Angelo lately. Feels good. Feels like it's 2010 again. Feels like we're back when we're 14. Miss him alot the past year. O well. He's the one who's been there for me and saw me at my worst, when I was the ugliest, everything. Just, a true bestfriend. But the sad thing is, it's all coming to an end. Damn, just feel so emotional. But, our friendship won't stop! :-)

So anyway, Lenz. STAY STRONG LAH SIAL!!!!!! _l_ GEMOK BODOH. :-)

3 years and still counting. #BFF (lol i look so fat but nvm. life.) 

Ok ciao! 

What are words? 

Knives. Screwdrivers. Hammers. And words, hurt. Can someone just ask them to shut up? Ask them to shut up and stop commenting on how fat someone is or how skinny someone is. Fuck you, you're just a typical Singaporean yourself. You think you're all that hot? HUH. Honestly, if I were given a chance to tell you all your flaws in your face, even my fingers can't finish up what I wanna say man. I mean, shut up shut up shut up. Mind your own fucking business son of a bitch. It hurts to see a beautiful friend starving herself and then there's people telling her how skinny she already is. And it hurts when I finally see her start eating normally and people just comment on how fat she is. Ask yourself are you that hot yourself? Perfect? My ass. Who the fuck gives you the fucking right to fucking judge. Enough man, enough. It's already hard enough she's trying to please the society. And you guys as her fucking schoolmates/friends are not even helping?! I mean, how'd you feel if someone calls you ugly. And if you doll up, someone says you look like a clown. You do this, it's wrong, you do that, it's wrong. All you people are good at is to comment comment comment. Looks matters the most huh? What about the heart? God, I can't take it when my bestfriend is mentally pressurized that way. I'm worried, upset and disappointed. I didn't know the people I see everyday are a bunch of selfish pricks who just criticize on what people eat and their body size. Why the fuck are you even judging them? Why the fuck are you even staring at their body parts? Sick prick. Fuck off seriously, just bloody fuck off and zip your bloody mouth. I just can't see her cry anymore. She's beautiful and I don't know how many times I've been trying to tell her this but you people and your fucked up words are stopping her from realizing how beautiful she is. One day, if she commits suicide cos someone calls her ugly, I hope all of you suffer from guilt forever. You want it this way right? I've got to be honest cos words kill. People hurt themselves from all this shitty words. I'm not saying she's going to die/commit suicide. But ask yourself: what if? Think before you fucking speak, idiots. Fuck it. Just, stop it.

Happiness

Omg hey there! Been sucha long time since I last blogged so yep, hello hello hello my fellow non-existent readers! ^~^ 

School has been hectic with the art coursework and all that shit. But put that aside for awhile, I'm here to blog about my shopping trip with my favourite girls hehehehe. Finally have the time to do so. Stole some picts from Farihin (youurainbow.blogspot.com)! 

Anyway, finally managed to shop shop shop till i drop kekeke. Bought quite a number of stuff for 40 bucks so I was actually quite pleased with everything that I bought. Albeit it wasn't a very good shopping trip but before all that shit happened, it was the bomb - dabomb dabomb dabomb! kekekeke omg thank these gurls for being thr for me when I was at my lowest. :'-) 

 Outfits of the day. 

 Fedora hats! ^ ^ 

Rings of the day. 

Gah, don't know how lucky I am to have these 2 girls by my side. Really extremely lucky. Both of them are so sweet, i can't even.. :'-) Just thank you so much cos I'll remember who's always there and who isn't. Luv you both x

  ANYWAY, I GOT MY LOWER HELIX PIERCING ALREADY! YAY YAY YAY YAY YAY!

That's all for town, I guess. After that incident, I just realised I made a decision that changed my life. Maybe forever? Hmmm. But, I swear I'm happier right now. So much happier. And, I shall not give a flying fuck to the people who do not care about others' feelings. Yes, no flying fucks for you fucking friend. 0.

Anyway, school. School = Art coursework = Late night classes = reaching home as late as 4AM = eyebags = omg = O: 

Well, atleast I'm done with coursework!!!!! I think. But, yeah. It's been really hectic with the time flying past so quickly. And Mr.Sham's forever "Time waits for no man" shit omg stress. But he's a really nice t'cher and a funny guy so that's gr8. 

So eventhough I was under alot of pressure with the... 

 Dying.. 

 Cutting.. 

 Pulling..

Nevertheless, it was a gr8 experience working with a bunch of wonderful classmates who're so sweet knowing what happened to me. Just love my class, really! Bunch of adorbz gurls! kekeke and not forgetting, the good food that we always share among each other!!!! 

 GOLDEN PILLOW! mmdap 

 Sab shueb's mum bought cake for all of us! It's realllly yummy. Thank you Aunty Aida. I think i got her name right. lolol

 Homies. Kinda got closer to the both of them. And I guess it's a good thing. That's fakhrul and Liyana btw. Yesyes, members baru aku hahahaha ;-)

Socks of the day. 

Done with art. And, have I told ya'll how much I love music? Like really really really love music. And I really treasure the musical instruments I have at home. Hahahaha here's my blue bestfriend that isn't so blue anymore. I added colour to his life so yeah. Hurray for tribal prints! ^ ^ 

And now, for my new collection..... 

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Erm, you'd know if you stalk my tweets. It's @BATxxo btw! kekekeke 

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 TA-DA!!!! A ukelele. Yes yes yes, I love it so much. I call it my ukebaby trololol gay I know but whatever. Got this as an extremely belated b'day by Syafiqah, Amy and Sakinah. Gosh, i love them so much. I teared up in schl. Thanks girls, thanks. Wonderful friends I have eh? :'-) 

Just realised how contented I am with life right now. After she's gone. True what mum and Norita said. I will be happier. I am happier. So much for bestfriends being there huh? Now she's just somebody that I used to know~ hahahaha anyway, life's pretty much perfect. I have everything I need: A wonderful family. Awesome friends. And an awesome bob.

Bob tried to stay awake for me during my art night classes. He's so sweet. And I bet he can't see this. Nah, he doesn't need to know.. But I guess there must be a reason why Allah only let me meet Bob 1 month before schl ends right? hahaha :-) Too early to say, but I must thank him for being sweet and adorable kekeke.

Alhamdulillah. Syukur.
xoxo

p/s: Hello Zawati, please smile. Good things comes to those who wait. Just wait awhile longer. Miracles do happen. :-)

Should stop thinking too much. Stop being so negative. Stop being so sensitive. Look what happened yesterday? He texted. ;-) 

The passing crush 

I thought I'd never get this feeling back. Yknow? Those feelings you get when you first like someone. The nervousness. The spazzing. The silent screaming with your girls. I thought it'd never happen again because of mmm. But it did! And i'm glad it did. It happened. But then, it kinda suck cos when you finally decided to open up again and give someone a chance.. it just don't work out. It's like, you gave someone a chance and poof! - gone. It's more like, giving a kid an ice-cream and then when he's about to take a bite, you snatch it in his bloody face. Yknow, that kind of shit. It's more like disappointing really. Like when you finally finally finally thought 'hey, i'd give this a go. I'd give this a chance. I'd try this out.' then no, just no, just no. It's more like I'm really really really just disappointed. And then I remind myself that good things come to those who wait. Trying to look at the positive side of this situation I'm currently facing. Oh look, there's no positive side. Or maybe there is? That H asked about me? That he still thinks I'm too young? ha ha but still, surprising that he remembers 'Norita's friend that likes me' hahaha

So forget about it. Go with the flow. For ___, uhuh he's just a passing crush.. Or is he? hmm still upset and disappointed.

xx