Keep Holding On. 

"I didn't unlove my true love so I guess you shouldn't. And if you feel that it's for you then it definitely is. Nothing's impossible with Allah. Nothing is. I'm sure you guys will be back even if the world says no. I'll be the person who says that it's possible no matter what happens cos like i kinda went through whatever you went through just that you occurred obstacles with different guys and I went through obstacles about how to be patient with him and trust me my happy days aren't still here but here I am holding on and I know you know how much it hurts like hell right like figuring out if all these pain and tire going though is worth it or not? Think of all those times we put our pride down to save and salvage what we've lost and end up empty handed and broken-hearted. But bat, what if he's still meant for you but it's just that that time, it wasn't the right time? I'm sure he thinks of you. First true love is a feeling you get to feel only once in a lifetime you know and I understand your pain and some pain are just worth it right? Whatever you're feeling, he's feeling it too! I bet you agree that you suddenly thought alot about him and that's because he did too! Whatever you feel is whatever he feel. It's just that he don't share it but you do. But he sure do miss you - the girl who tried so hard to salvage and save this. He'll remember you for your bravery and efforts and sacrifices. Just keep on praying. It's okay to miss him. And you can't move on because Allah don't let you move on right? He made you think and miss him. Allah did all these because he has his own reasons and its kinda clear you can't move on so you guys will end up together and it's just time that will tell when.Why Allah put you with so much guys and only to make you think of __ late at night and at the end of the day? Allah knows whatever you're feeling even if you don't tell him. He makes you think of __. That's the fate he put you in and I want you to know there are reasons why Allah DON'T let you move on. It's because you guys still have hope. __ needs to learn to man up and start acting like a man and not let the girl do the chasing you see, and I bet he really got think of you. It's just that we don't know his actions but Allah has his reasons to why you can't move on from __ and it's because if you guys can't go on separate ways, you guys have to go on together :-)" 

- Farihin 

So many days i kept wondering and questioning and doubting myself.. but I can't continue lying to myself. When you miss someone, you can't lie.. you just can't. And she made me believe that Allah has reasons, and greater plans for me.. and I hope He listens to my prayers. 

All in all, i'm contented with life. Praises to The Almighty. 

xx

Please, don't go. 

Hi there non-existent readers! I'm gonna blog about my whole week so embrace yourselves!!!!! kekeke so basically what happened was that I helped out at the Secondary One Orientation camp! Gosh, i missed that place so much. It was okay for me since I really missed cheering and guiding the sec1s hahaha good old days. Camps pretty boring without my homies.. so weird and sad that everyone's graduated already and all that. We need to invent a time machine! hahaha :-) 

Before camp, I had Mcbreakfast with UG! Okay, just bought a hashbrown because the night before I ate mcspicy..... hehehe 

With the Rodrigues' youngest daughter! ^ ^ 

First day at camp! 

 With Izzul! Sucha cutie, love him so much kekeke :-) 

 This sunset, was so special. It made me cry to be honest hahaha i was just staring at it and tryna hold back my tears and all... the last time i watched a sunset was 2 years ago and it meant something, really it did. hahaha maybe ya'll should watch a sunset with someone special, you'd understand. But yeah, flashbacks and my heart got the better of me. But it's still a lovely sunset isn't it? :-) 

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Had Mcspicy again at night for supper with Zuhairi, Dinie, Changzheng and Zul! Mmmdap :-) Felt so fat but whateverrrrrrrr *snaps fingers

Second day at camp! 

 Met a new friend, kai! He's half dutch. Actually i noticed him in schl and kept disturbing him hahah, bet he find me scary. So we only became close in camp hahaha

 During the Hike/Sandcastle building @ ECP with Andy! 

 Third day at camp! 

 "Eh, eh, eh! Do pedo face ah!!!!" - Andy

1E3 2012! BOM PAK BOM PAK PAK!!! 

That's all for camp! Hung out with Xinrui afterwards before heading home! :-) Sucha lovely 3 days spent with lovely people. 

O level results day

Last day wearing uniform. 

Holyshit, the atmosphere was so intensed. Woke up at 6AM and bam, couldn't stop feeling nervous. And i just felt like shitting.. and my hands couldn't stop perspiring. Cold sweats. Holy fuck! It was so nervous. Scrolling through the twitter timeline wasn't helping cos everyone felt the same way. It was nerve-wrecking. And when you go up the hall and see the teachers, you just felt like you wanna scream or runaway.. the wait was killing everyone. But i'm glad it's over and well, the girl beside me over here is one of the top scorers in school! The only malay girl whoop. So proud of my zawati, :-* 

My results was okay! Better than expected. I praise Allah for that, for listening to my prayers 5 times a day and He did not give up on me. So yeah, got the results that I wanted and i've decided to live my dream of being a teacher! Been wanting to be one since I was 5. Praying hard to get into the first course!  

Campfire's burning now!

Failshot hahaha 

"Eh, do orgasm face ah!!!!" - Kai hahaha fuck, did the orgasm face till my vein pop out from my neck! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

 SHORT!!!!! :-* 

As usual, like always, it's a tradition - MACS AFTER CAMPFIRE!!!! 

 He wants the B. HAHAHA just kidding. :-)

 Hahaha stare at the watch, the watch! 

 HAHAHA love this pict so much, idk why! 

 #legend #doubletwist 

 kekeke my two handsome bestfriends aish, feel so loved and lucky hahahahahahah 5 years of friendship never ends here! ;-) 

 JOCELYN TANG! Lovely girl accompanied me till the bus came. Just like the good old days. kekeke I hope I'll go to NP so that I get to bump into this lovable friend of mine. Used to always go to school with her aishhhh ;-)

2013 began well. Haven't gotten a jar to fill it up and I'll do so soon enough. I hope this happiness will last for the entire year!!!!! I don't want to be sad anymore, i feel so loved by so many people and I feel so happy when I meet up with all my friends. I just wanna be a happy girl this 2013! Have a lovely day everyone. 

xx