For Batrisyia

What is a few years compared to forever? 

Today, I found out that in a year and a half or so, my boyfriend (or my soulmate, as I would believe of him to be) will be leaving for Australia to further his studies for a few years. I found out about this 2 years ago, even before we dated and I still stuck by him and he does the same for me. I can never be any prouder of him for being where he is today, going through National Service and balancing between me and his family, and for planning his future.

No, I am not worried. Maybe I am just sad that we will be apart or that I don't get to hold his hand or hug him and nobody will poke my tummy or pinch my nose, but that's it. I know alot of people say LDR won't work out. But what if it will? :-) At the end of the day, it all lies in God's hands. And I believe that, we did not meet only to be separated just because of distance. I also believe that if you set your heart and mind to it, it will work out.

So I've thought things through and therefore, besides crying (haha), I am actually going to come up with a few LDR resolutions: 

1) Be financially stable

How? I shall admit that no doubt I am the worst at money. My money flows like water, the way I spend it. But this time, I am determined. Every month, I will save $100. That's 25 bux a week, 5 bux each day. I will make sure that I put $5 in my little money box everyday! And that does not include birthday money (it's my birthday month so I'll get extra haha) and money from jobs/gigs. I will make sure that  I save 50% of my pay each time I get it! 

2) Be a better Muslim

I am not the most religious person or the most perfect muslim.. I mean look at the way I dress and behave (lol). But I know that if I want this to work, I will need to pray alot. And I will read the Quran maybe once a week (and slowly increase). This was what I found on the internet, and it's always what my mum told me "Praying and reading the Quran are two ways of opening a dialogue with the Almighty. If you want God to talk to you, read the Quran. If you want to talk to God, pray to Him". My mum also told me that if I want Akmal to really be my soulmate, that I have to put in extra effort to pray with details of why I really want him to be The One (I actually think it's pretty cool haha).  

3) Love Akmal to the fullest, each passing day 

There is no doubt that we argue every now and then. But we both always believe that it is only to make our relationship stronger and it surprises us how we both managed to go through them. Knowing that the future is going to get harder than this, I have vowed to myself to love my boyfriend more each passing day. Yes, guilty as charged, sometimes I may be very emotional and over-possessive(?), I get jealous over the slightest, most redundant things - I guess, there is no time for that now. I want to make use of the 1 and a half year with him, making wonderful memories and showering him with love. 

And when Akmal finally has to leave for Australia.. 

4) Be strong for him 

I will be strong for him. I will remind myself that, I am not the one moving away from family and friends. It is him. So who is the one having it tougher than anyone else? It is also him. Therefore, I will try my best to stay strong and not make it any harder for him by being a cry baby (haha).

5) Communicate, as many times possible (+ skype dates!) 

I will make sure that we will make use of every possible technology to communicate with each other. Just like how NS is, he doesn't need to spend 1 hour talking to me. Maybe just 5 minutes to tell me about his day. That would be enough. Not forgetting, our frequent Skype dates - for us to keep doing what we're doing even now in SG (movie-marathoning, sleep with skype still on hehe etc.)

6) Visit him once a year (if possible) 

By the time he's away, I will be working (probably a teacher haha). If I keep up with how I am usually saving my money + the money I earn from work, with God's willing it shall be enough to visit every year. Yes, I am very determined!!! Are you as excited as I am?!?! 

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 To my dearest akmal, 

It is no doubt that whatever's coming is not going to be easy. But remember what you told me, that God knows exactly what He was doing when he lead me to you. The toughest obstacle is yet to come but I know we will overcome it. We always do. I am thankful that I get to go through this with you. This is only going to make us stronger. The final test is always the hardest. And then after that................. hehehe. Here's a reminder for the both of us, something you told me 3 months ago when I was feeling blue: 

Thank you so much for the amazing 1 year (& idk how many months haha). Always remember that I will stand by you no matter how tough things get. I love you too, dear. 

xxo, 

Bat