What Bat Said

Sorry, I'm too upset/disappointed/emotional/worried/angry to post about things in school. Although school's been great but it has always been a lie. Like how people are lying to me, acting like they're my friends while talking behind my back, and it's really funny why they are actually talking about me and doing it at the same time, how contradicting I must say. If it isn't for anyone else, i wouldn't care. But this, it's you. So i must say, i have to say, right here, in my online diary, that I have given up on Hope, On dreams, on wishes and on YOU. And i really cannot take it anymore but to let the tears flow, just flow. And i cried so hard for the first time for you. So much for loving you, you hurt me even more. Thank you, for being who you are. You were once so perfect, but everything changed. People change, i changed, in fact, you change. I've been keeping alot of things about you to myself. But decided to open a secret blog for you to read. I posted up all my secrets, and i'm so sorry that you didn't click the link to read them. There's alot of things i wish to tell you, alot of things, just too much, but something you did really just made me so fuck up. Yes, it's my fault. Then i'm sorry. For being so rude, for being so everything-that-piss-you-and-the-rest-off but for my happiness and perhaps for yours, we have to keep a distance. And if you think right now i'm being sucha bitch, i'm sorry. Then you haven't seen the rest of me. Call me a bitch, whatever you want. Really. I'm just so sorry that i loved you.