Tell me, if i hold on any longer, would you show that you care or bother about me at all? Is it me or was I the only one holding on? Yes, this is my bloody fourth time I'm thinking about letting go. 'Cause you just don't seem to care. )-: I am sensitive, so what? How many times have you been complaining to your friends telling them that you have issues with me? )-: I already tried my best, even until now, my feelings for you are seriously fading, I'm still trying to hold on even if i see no point. Because i believe in you, that one day you'll show me that you appreciate me. But i'm very impatient, I'm sorry. & Really, my feelings are fading. )-: I'm sorry. It's really fading.
I used to look forward to your messages, now i don't bother.
I used to be so sad when you made comments about me, now i don't feel a thing.
I used to think of you, dream of you, miss you, but now i don't.
I used to look forward to finding you after school, I don't bother anymore.
Can you feel that my feelings are fading?
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Actually, I thought of a lot of things. I came to realise who my bestfriends are. :-) I'm sure they know who they are, :') I really appreciate them because they appreciate me. They were there for me when i was pissed/sad/happy/emotional & I love them for who they are!!!!!!!!!! So, i will thank them individually one of these days & I'll just say I'm being random, but i mean it! :-P
Hahahaha, sometimes i like sitting down alone and reflect about alot of things to myself. Everytime i got closer to someone, i found out their weakness & i think they found mine too. And i realise most of them take me for granted. X will vent her anger at me, raise her voice at me and give me a face when she's pissed off, i wonder if she knows I feel sad whenever she does that. And whenever she raised her voice at me infront of a lot of people, she's been embarassing me. And when i didn't do anything to her but she's angry over smth else, she'll give me attitude. Like yesterday, I almost screamed at her, i swear. I guess Iza knows who! :-) She is still my friend, but sometimes I just can't accept her attitude. She's taking me for granted. Really.
X2 takes me for granted too. She wants everything her way, breaks promises, treats me as a substitute & the words she use hurts me. I wonder if she ever spare a thought about me? Whenever she blamed me for everything that I didn't do. Actually, i trusted her alot. Really. But i realise, now i can't 'cause she takes me for granted & i don't trust people who takes me for granted seriously, I'm being extremely frank here. 'Cause I'm sick and tired of people taking advantage of me.
But somehow, i must "thank" these two people for making me realise how important my girls are to me, I have learnt to appreciate them more instead of getting petty over small things at them. So, yes my girls(Yunjie, Zawati, Verlynn, Siewhui, Xinrui & Szehui) ! I want to thank you for being such wonderful people. & yes lah, i love you all okie! :-P
That's alot of ranting. Lololol, but I mean it.
xoxo.
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