Honestly i'm just hurt and I don't want to keep asking for assurance. I want to leave it all to fate because I'm sick of fighting for someone and sick of getting my heart broken. Please just don't make me feel special anymore if you don't intend to make me feel special all the way. I need time to get over this. And I will act like I'm okay. I will act like i am. And i just feel like I don't deserve all this. I really don't. and you know I really don't right? And I think I'm just a burden and I'm expecting too much but I'm suppose to take it slow. And i know what the hell 'slow' is because i've been through it before earlier this year remember? And now I'm watching it happen again. And it sucks and it hurts and I can do nothing about it. And everytime I wanna give up I just keep reminding myself that if this is gonna be worth it then it won't be easy but I just can't because I don't know what we are and it's confusing and the assurance level is just 0 and I just can't do it anymore. At the end of the day I'm a girl, and if you don't intend to stay, don't make me feel like you're gonna be here for the rest of my life. Why is it that I'm always the one fighting for someone really, why. Why is it that I can watch you go all out for other girls but not me. This is just wrong. And I just can't i just can't maybe it's just me yes it's always been just me. Isn't it? I guess it's too late again. I'm.. done.
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"Before you give up, just remember that he was the guy... who cried for you"
This sentence hit me in the nerve.
p/s: Update it when i have the feel to blog because rn i'm just not in the right state of mind to blog properly.
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